BrandonMarshall Posted December 31, 2013 Posted December 31, 2013 7 Years Ago... (age 19) I started searching for answers myself.... and I typed the exact words into Google "How To Get My EX Back". This is what brought me into the world of Self Improvement. The first serious girlfriend I had ( at the age of 16).... her name was Kristen. She was my first serious relationship, the first girl I had sex with and the first girl i kissed. The problem is I had no idea what i was doing in this relationship. I was VERY insecure.... I felt i wasn't good enough for her, I constantly called her phone, I didn't even trust her when she was out with her friends!!! Does this sound familiar to you? I thought this was what true love was all about. I actually thought that fighting made our relationship stronger... but little did I know it was ripping it apart... and I was too blind to realize it. So after being with her for 2 years I was under the illusion that we were meant for each other and nothing could go wrong... boy was I wrong. Well the weird thing about it is we stopped fighting, we stopped arguing.... I thought our relationship was getting better but she was actually fed up. I used to hang out with her EVERY day ( another mistake.... time apart makes the heart grow fonder). Well she called me one day... a few hours late, it was weird we were supposed to meet up in the morning, but she ignored my calls ( Text messaging wasn't as common back then). Well she called me to come over to her house.... when I walked it things didn't feel right. She finally sat me down on her bed and what she was about to say was going to change my life forever . She told me she "will always love me, but she's not IN LOVE with me" HOLY SH**? Where did this come from? Why is this happening? THIS IS THE ONLY GIRL I EVER BANGED AND SHE'S THE ONLY ONE THAT EXISTS IN MY WORLD!!! MY LIFE IS RUINED. Have you ever felt like this? Not only did she break up with me... but later I find out from her "MySpace" (yes everybody had MySpace back then)... she was hooking up with her "friend" Jon!!!!! I could only think to myself "are you serious??? But I'm better than that d bag!!!! You gotta be f'ing kidding me". Well no.... apparently to her eyes he was better than me... And I was stupid enough to want to stay in her life.... I tried to win her back, but it only hurt me even more. I tried to fight Jon... but he only whooped my ass. Why? Well because I didn't even fricken lift weights. For the past 2 years this crazy broad was my life source.... I did NOTHING ELSE but hang out with her. Since she was my main focus, my source of life itself, the break up became extremely painful. I couldn't sleep, I lost my appetite and I couldn't stop thinking about her. I felt hopeless.... I put all of my self worth in the palm of her hands and she CRUSHED IT. So what happened next? I Googled "How To Get My Ex Back" and began my journey to become a better man. Right now I'm in a healthy relationship which is quite a huge upgrade from the my first serious relationship back 7 years ago. I will be posting the 2nd part of my journey in the next few days.... - Brandon Marshall
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