freebird31 Posted December 30, 2013 Posted December 30, 2013 Every time I post I always make a note of the time frame of the break up. It has been 8 months post breakup, 5 months since we have seen each other and 3 months of NC. These last 8 months have been a rocky, ROCKY road. the first 5 months that my ex was still in my life after the break up were hell to me. I somehow managed the balls to send him out of my life....hense the 3 months NC. It took a lot of mental strength to get me where i am currently at. Today, i came to the sudden realization, after many months still pining over him, that I DESERVE BETTER. I go to school, i work, im a hard worker and a passionate lover and im so damn loyal to my man. After seeing a picture of a couple i know, who love each other deeply.I saw her boyfriend had did something completely romantic for her. my ex NEVER did those things for me. I just suddenly realized I DESERVE THAT. I deserve to be treated like a princess and more. My ex doesnt deserve me. He doesnt! Unless he suddenly gets his act together and gains some impressive manners, he never deserved me. I am the type of person that forgives and forgives and forgives and i always get taken advantage of. My best friend was NEVER there for me during the breakup, i had no one! She completely let me down. She was too busy with her own relationship and she let me down. I forgive her now, but ill never forget. Likewise for my ex, he completely let me down. I can say i forgive him now, but i will never forget it. I deserve too much to be let down time after time by people. The last thing i need is my romantic partner to always dissapoint me. I deserve so much more!! I cant believe i suddenly have realized this. I would always tell myself that i deserved better, but i have never certainly been more sure of it until now. I deserve so much more. And I refuse to settle for people who always let me down. I forgive, but I dont forget.. I never knew how strong i could possibly be. I feel so strong. After many months of feeling weak, pained and completely powerless, i now have never felt more powerful. All a result of mental integrity, and continuous faith that everything was going to be okay. I remember at one time i had wished I was dead, but i kept going. Now, i feel like im on top of a mountain looking down at all the struggles i have overcame this last year to get here. I have never took so much pleasure in the person that I allowed myself to become, and the person that i didnt let myself become as well. Humans are capable of great strength and potential, its only FEAR and mental weakness that stops us from reaching our peak. Be strong and have faith. Pray and youll get through anything. There is truly a light at the end of the tunnel, and its not like any other light that I have seen before. 2
HeartbrokenNewbie Posted December 30, 2013 Posted December 30, 2013 ...and this is around the point they make a sudden return! x keep strong u are doing brilliantly x
Author freebird31 Posted December 30, 2013 Author Posted December 30, 2013 "There's times in your life when you have to choose between being loved and being respected. That love without respect was always fleeting. But that respect can grow into real, lasting love" Loved this. Respect yourself
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