hurt for loving Posted December 27, 2013 Posted December 27, 2013 I am such a mess. Do conflicted and unsure of anything. If you have read my other post you will know my story. How after what was a happy relationship was thrown away. Only to discover it's simply for his insecurities or something. That having a girlfriend who loved you unconditionally, is a total geek, loves cuddling on the couch with pizza and a film as well as dressing up for a night out, got involved with what you loved and did little things just to make you smile wasn't enough. Through the other post and other forums there are various opinions. Mostly that I should cut him off after he emailed admitting his wrongdoing and asking to be friends. I feel strange. I remember the good times and miss them greatly. That I could always be honest as I find that most important. That I trusted him above all. I admit. I wonder if he does miss me more than just wanting a friend. If he knows what he gave up. The thought of feeling this way all the time sucks. Buy the thought of moving on seems so alien. I see so many hearts broken and wonder if I'll ever be happy again? Oh I know that happiness is not based on another person. But I miss having someone so close. My other half. Ah I guess I'm having a bad day. Sometimes I switch from being alright to confusion, anger, sadness, wondering what could be or thinking on what was. Sorry for this long post. I just needed to clear my head.
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