StringsAttached Posted December 26, 2013 Posted December 26, 2013 Hey guys this is long but any help would be appreciated. I finally said goodbye to my ex gf (gf of 2 years). Honestly, I feel empty inside because she wasn't real with me, ever. I trusted her, loved her and really cared for her but it's just time and time again with this girl. She dumped me twice actually which is pathetic and just shattered my pride because i've never been dumped before I met her. The thing is she's ****ed up. She's a psycho and just broken. She was into heroin in her youth and slept around a lot and got raped (twice if she's not lying). But I fell in love with her and opened up to her. I lost weight because of her, started smoking weed to cope with her second dismissal (which blindsided me) and now I realize that she was a fraud. Apparently she made up her whole latest rape story to friend-zone me. She told me she was having an HIV-Test done on her soon but walks into a relationship with the results of the test still unknown? I tried my ****ing best. I really did. I'm a guy who if he falls in love keeps his promises. I would never promise anyone i'd marry them if it wasn't true. Now that i've realized this girl is a liar and would date any man who even bats an eye at her. I feel both satisfaction and emptiness. Satisfaction because I was right and I know what type of girl she is after turning a blind eye to her flaws. I even had a dream about a month ago of her telling me she found someone else. Emptiness because she's the first girl i've ever loved. lol She's one to pick bad relationships, even after converting to Christianity she has been with low-life men yet she didn't pick me - The guy who'd treat her right. Un****ingbelievable. Now i've done the whole No contact thing before and it worked but I used it in hopes of getting her back. Now I want to get her out of my head because she wasn't the one I fell in love with. I've destroyed anything that reminds me of her and promised myself i'm too strong to stalk her online. Help me please? I need some guidance in this hard time. Now that i've realized who she is surely i'll find peace and solace? I just want her out of my head for good i've changed quite a lot from when she last dumped me so I can cope far better...still I can't shake this insurmountable feeling of loss. Can I really survive by never talking to her again?
CYBER77 Posted December 26, 2013 Posted December 26, 2013 i'm sorry that happened to you but i guess bad people are the one whom you really su... to get out of your head even through you don't want these people back i guess time will make you think of her less,i really hope so i'm kinda in the same situation i just hope time will heal everything sometime i think its because of the energy we've put in to make the relationship work that why we suffer.
iworthmore Posted December 26, 2013 Posted December 26, 2013 u cant just forget her over night. it takes time. and u can decide how long it takes. ur positive attitude by making promises to ur self is a great start. now you know what kind of person she is and how much she worth. u didn't lose something special even u love her. she's not special. focus on urself and find someone that will truly love you. been there, having up's and down's but feeling bit better everyday. wish u the best 1
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