love&theft Posted December 26, 2013 Posted December 26, 2013 Yesterday and today have been difficult. Last night I found myself sobbing at Christmas commercials of happy couples. Pathetic I know. I was hoping today would be better but it wasn't. I went to dinner at my families and it wasn't long before the conversation turned to my ex and how they see him here & there. (I moved an hour away to get away from seeing him.) Then it was the stories that included him. My family can be so hurtful sometimes. I'm sad and lonely. I miss him but I don't like who he has become. I miss the old him. And us. We've been NC for 4 weeks (BU for 10 months). I've been strong about not reaching out to him. But I will admit, my ego is a little hurt that he didn't text me today being Christmas and all. All I can think about is that he's probably out enjoying his holiday and having a great life without me. I'd tell myself he could be thinking the same thing about me but truth is he is a selfish callous jerk who only thinks of himself so he's not thinking about me at all. Thanks everyone for listening....my pup is getting tired of seeing me mope around.
xUnknown Posted December 26, 2013 Posted December 26, 2013 I hear ya man. My ex and I broke up 3.5 months ago. I went NC and almost 3 weeks ago she came back to reconcile. What sucks is that I was working past her and moving on - not thinking about her daily like I used to. Now wanting to get back with her is al I can think of. She texted me to wish myself and my family a Merry Christmas, to which I responded cordially. But I know exactly what you mean. I feel like I'm going through the breakup all over again. I want so much to take her back and be with her, but I know the thought of the breakup will be in the back of my mind - hurting the "new" relationship. I plan on going NC for a few months and re-connecting when I'm ready. I miss her more than anything though and I know exactly how you feel. The thought of the previous Christmas and all we did together just kept coming back. Remain strong. Were all here for each other.
freebird31 Posted December 26, 2013 Posted December 26, 2013 I totally feel you, today I just broke down. Seeing my cousin and his girlfriend and my family teasing them saying they were the "lovebirds" I felt so depressed. Because that was once me. And now it's all gone. I just lost it and to ifht I found myself driving around visiting all the places that we would park my car and make out in my car like a couple of teenagers. And the times we would talk. 8 months post breakup and 3 months NC. This holiday really broke me down I cannot wait until it's over. I miss my ex so much. We had a wonderful thing going for us it only last 8 months. I miss us so much today. I will never contact him , ever though. Ever. But I miss him .
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