Lost girl :(

[Stephy.dee]

Hello, this is my first time on one of these forums , bare with me my story is a long one .. So about 2 years ago I met my now ex at work , we fell instantly in love and he was the first man I introduced to my son who was 10 months at the time, we very quickly moved in together and 2 months later 2 days before Christmas he proposed to me . I had never met a guy so in love with me . And I admit I get scared when things get serious so I pushed him but he always wanted to work things out that showed me this was the man I wanted to spend my life with , anyways we had a lot of money problems and it caused us to fight a fair bit . But we always worked through it my family and his family loved us together no one ever thought he would leave me , in the last year we were together things started to get rough I wasn't working he was working and in school I was in school , but I got lazy wouldn't clean , I would push him to do things on his only day off of the week he would take care of my son and he basically did everything he could to make me happy , and yet I would find things to complain about . I know I was going through a depression since even before we were together , but in the last few months we were together he lost 30 pounds because he was doing to much and him aswell going through a depression. One day October 4 th to be exact he woke up for work and gave me a kids as always said goodbye and we would see eachother after his day , then at 8 he texted me asking how the buget for the week looked an I automatically became down and started a fight he then said he couldn't do it anymore .. I acted like I didn't care and he later texted me saying he really didn't no what to do and asked me what I wanted an my response was well you already left me so it's done ( words I really regret) . That night he didn't come home I was a reck called 5000 times and texted non stop . He had a lot of trouble talkig to me for the next few weeks and said he still loved me , and I offered to help him pay down our debt together and he said he really appreciated it. After a few weeks we started talking a bit more but we would get into these fights then I told him that I was talking to someone he imidiatly said he would give me my space and not talk to me as much . But the next day was saying it's just hard for him cause he does love me . Anyways it didn't work out with this new guy , and my sons bday is nov27 he came and spent the night with us and my family then that night he kissed me saying he wanted to take it slow and that he loved me and missed me. 4 days went by and I was texting him non stop and he felt pressured and said I havnt changed at all anyways so it ended , but since then he spent 2 nights at my place we didn't do anything besides good around and laugh and cuddle he came over for his bday I took him to a movie everytime we see eachother he compliments me and we cuddle and have fun like we used to its Christmas time now I gave him his Xmas gift (ps4 that I bought before we broke up) he said he appriciates how much I see how much he did for me and my son . We pretty much talk everyday an I love him so much I know he does too I just need some advice as to what to do what he's thinking .. He tells me all the time he loves me and always wants to be there for my son and I .. I'm just scared it'll be until he finds someone better because I know I did not treat him well and he has heard it to many times that I would change .. Any insight would be great

[Coping17]

Maybe some time apart might help you both. You may also want to give him some space.

There is no point in rushing back into a broken relationship. Better yourselves and let the cards fall where they fall.

[Stephy.dee]

I'm scared he'll forget me