CYBER77 Posted December 23, 2013 Posted December 23, 2013 (edited) first i would like to say english is not native language through i'm kinda more at ease with french so bear with me. well here's my story ,after having a relationship of 9months with a girl i was not compatible with whom i pretty made everything i could to make the relationship work there were times i felt like i was not myself she was controlling me,friends were telling me to leave her etc she isn't good for me etc ,well she broke up with me and wanted to stay friends,but i didn't, i went on nc for about two months then one day i asked her how she was doing i knew she was dating another guy,she kinda replied harshly that day this made up my mind i shouldn't talk to her anymore or ask hows she is doing! One month later i started dating another girl which was on holiday in my country for three months, i knew her for like pretty much one year we were friends on facebook, it was the best relationship i ever had,we pretty love the same music,had so much in common, but sadly she went back to her country,i was doing ok for 8 months through i miss her alot, we are still talking on watsapp viber she dated other guys but i kinda understand its life. its been one month i'm going through hell i started having thoughts about my previous girlfriend the one who dumped me may be 1 year ago and made my life miserable she never like anything i did,once she told me she was bipolar.well i don't wish her bad through she is a bad person i don't know whats happening to me i don't want her back or anything but lately she is on my thoughts and i seriously can't stop thinking about her i don't love her or anything,everyday i wake up i feel like ****,i work at home its killing me sometime i feel depressed,i go to gym after work this kinda de stress me a bit,through for 11 months i didn't talk to her i didn't check her profile for like 1 year two weeks ago i wanted to understand what was happening to me as i never felt like this! i went on her profile checked her pic didn't feel nothing,i've blocked her! i get this stomach feeling everytime i think of her,i feel disgusting i kinda hate myself because in my life everytime i was down i got back i'm someone who loves joking,talking etc,but now i'm feeling like **** what is killing me is i don't understand why she is in my head again :S have anyone experience this how do you cope with this? Edited December 23, 2013 by CYBER77
iworthmore Posted December 23, 2013 Posted December 23, 2013 im going through the same thing. i have depression sometimes, and i feel like **** and think about her all the time. but those are not the problem those are the symptoms. the problem is that i still love her. you think of her all the time. stressed and feel like ****. you still love her. i hope i am wrong. hope you do better
Author CYBER77 Posted December 23, 2013 Author Posted December 23, 2013 im going through the same thing. i have depression sometimes, and i feel like **** and think about her all the time. but those are not the problem those are the symptoms. the problem is that i still love her. you think of her all the time. stressed and feel like ****. you still love her. i hope i am wrong. hope you do better thanks for replying man,i didn't think of her for like 11months i did have small thoughts sometime but that it wasn't like now its like her face is stuck in my head,i don't cry i just have that stomach feeling because i feel sad that i'm like that and i just wish i didn't,because this girl is toxic she once made my life hell,i've just blocked her two weeks ago i never blocked her before,i just wish to feel good again! last year this period i was partying when i look at myself now i feel miserable depress,through i went to party etc three weeks ago i did feel good but when you are home again pff that feeling and the thougths starts again i wish you the same, lets be positive i'll say feels good to know that i'm not the only one feeling like that
iworthmore Posted December 23, 2013 Posted December 23, 2013 no man ur not alone. i'v been like this for 3+ months. healing is not linear process it has ups and down's. sometimes i feel great with no reason and sometimes im down. i wish i have a reset button. ill press it and then do an update to newer and better version of me. but im not a machine. i am stronger and u r 2. will this end? no doubt. when? we decide. happy xmas and new year 1
Author CYBER77 Posted December 24, 2013 Author Posted December 24, 2013 yes lets hope the same happy christmas and new year,hope 2014 will be better
Recommended Posts