Why so consistent Posted December 19, 2013 Posted December 19, 2013 Sorry for long word and bad English because I'm chinese I fell for this girl for real in love very 1st time and she was the first love I meet over Internet game , we been play for quite a while and have a great laugh when we spent a lot of time together . And I know she will move to England soon so I start to build a relationship and she agree we will start long distance relationship , she know she's my 1st girl friend and I wasn't but 5th and she being completely honest with me with the past year with all her patient . Is my jealousy make her suffocated because she had a job that working at home without go out and she have plenty of time to play game ( that we play together) , she meet a lot new friends and start to stay on voice chat with them all the time and of course I know(that's how I meet her ) also she tell me it just friend that having fun play together and she tell me she love me and I have to trust her . Not making any excuses but she's the very 1st girl I crush on after so many years and my jealousy and bad behaviour drive her away day by day until 2 months ago she can't take it anymore and broke up with me , and I still call her on Skype the next day she pick up we talk and continue but she said she is single now but pick up my call for a reason . She's waiting for me to change but I keep mess it up again and month ago she told me we are finished and done no more Skype call ,webcam or time for me and of course I call her next day on Skype and she pick it up we talk again and play game as usual that she's still spend whole day with me during my day off . And I finally realise my problem that I really want to fix it but 3 days ago I mess up again because of my jealousy also she said it clear (we are just friend nothing else) but she's still be there for me while I'm home , day off or whenever I'm free she's there. I was confuse and talk to her what she feel about me and she said she just used to have me around that's all , and now she wanna be friend but no more hope for me and she will never go back or have a relationship with me .
Author Why so consistent Posted December 19, 2013 Author Posted December 19, 2013 (edited) She was going to pay me a visit this year or after Xmas but I keep mess up and now everything is gone , I finally realise and change slowly but she's said too late and no hope for me . We can be friend but no relationship ever again..... I forgot to ask , should I just remain friend with her and see how's thing going ? Since she still open contact with me and spend time because I really love this girl , she's just sad and don't wanna deal with me but allow me to stay with her and be friend? Edited December 19, 2013 by Why so consistent
Author Why so consistent Posted December 19, 2013 Author Posted December 19, 2013 she didnt login skype whole day as usual but now she's here after i finish my work and she know i will home this hour , is she just being friendly or she say no hope because of my mess up ? she's not those girl who messing around i believe and what should i do now ?
devilish innocent Posted December 20, 2013 Posted December 20, 2013 You're not listening to her. She doesn't like you the same way you like her anymore. She doesn't see you as anyone she wants to be with romantically now or in the future. She has her mind made up about you. You want to believe she will love you. She won't. You are just a nice way for her to pass her time. It doesn't mean there is something wrong with you. You would probably seem like the perfect to some other girl. This girl is just not the one who can love you the way you should be loved. Since you seem unhappy trying to be her friend, I'd suggest that you don't talk to her at all. You'll miss her for a little while. Then you will get used to it. You will find a way to be happy again like you were before you met her. It's better than to keep hoping for more and to keep getting hurt. 2
Author Why so consistent Posted December 20, 2013 Author Posted December 20, 2013 That's just pointed to the head and pin into my heart like u said what she told me and I'm completely understand , but I do realise this is bad habit of what I did there and I'm trying to change for my own good . I'm trying to stay NC until I feel ready to move on or contact her treat her as a friend , yes for now in my mind all I'm thinking is how to win her back maybe after few months I will feel better or maybe she's not the one ? I don't know .....
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