Girl says no, but displays break-up behavior? Am i wrong?

[looneymalooney]

This girl and I used to spend time with the same group and she was showing interest (protective, asking if i'm ok, sharing things, offering to help me out, turning to look at me, staring at my face sometimes, singing when i was around...)

We started to get hot and cold towards eachother, so I asked (the begining of the year), what should i make of her behavior. I got so nervous that i forgot to mention I LIKE HER. She said it's not what it seems. I'm ok, but she changes, avoids me and if i tried to talk to her it looked as if she was in pain, so i just backed off.

 

After a while she asks me what's new and i just shrugged my shoulders as i couldn't even look at her bc i was confused. THAT day she posted a break-up song on her Facebook. She also starts to mirror my behavior on Messenger ( the only chat i used to talk over internet). When i logged in, she did after few minutes, if i logged out she did.(happened lots of times). She posts other few songs for about 1 month; still cold to eachother in real life. I send her a text on Easter Day, she responds. Posts on her FB turn to love songs and quotes which keep going on for about 1 month time which we start to talk again. Unfortunately my life turned upside down and i really felt like a relationship will fail miserably. So i told her one day that i love her, but can't be with her for now. i said i'm not expecting her to wait, and it's not another girl. She said i see things and songs were posted just for fun, got defensive and refused to talk. She stops using messenger.

She sleeps with some other guy and the next day she keeps staring at me and trying to talk to me.

 

After this we fall out of touch (NC), she starts posting break-up songs again, and i stop using messenger too . She keeps doing it for 1,5 months till i text on her bday. She wishes me back. She starts using messenger again the next day. Posts "i will always have you in my heart" on FB, then quotes asking for someone to be her friend, but since she said those first songs and quotes weren't for me i just kept looking and hoped she'll do more than that. She posts them for 3 months UNTIL my Name Day comes around. She wishes to everyone (even people she has nothing to do with), but i got nothing. She posts one last friendship quote and stops using messenger. 1 month since that. (all posts are still there)

 

Was all this just a big coincidence ?!

 

If i was right and she was into me, i realize i might have hurt her, but i felt it was the best thing to do, to let her know what is going on.

 

I don't really care for the No Contact rule and I'd like to find out what happened for real, but where to start, how? And how to avoid looking like a creep bc i already feel like a crazy person...

i don't want to lose her completely BUT i'm expecting her to make an effort if she wants to be friends, instead of just posting on Facebook waiting for me to do something about it. i was thinking to send her this exact sentence or a Christmas wish. Have no idea..

[strive]

You really have a weird relationship with this girl, but if there's one thing I'm certain is that FB (or any social media for that matter) is a terrible tool for gauging what a person is thinking/feeling. Ok so maybe you're right that all her posts were about you, but what if you're not? What if this is all just in your head?

[looneymalooney]

yes i took into consideration the fact that she said no, but then again how come everything i did influenced her behavior and the things she was posting on Facebook?! how does it look to you ? Honest opinion.

The thing is i'd really want to know bc it's messing my brain to think i misinterpreted everything so badly...