The highs...and the lows

[SarahJames]

I've been NC for some time now. I'm pretty surprised at how well I've been handling it - I haven't been crying or tempted to contact him. But some days, like today, I just feel so empty. I'm not tempted to contact him, but I just get this sick feeling. I feel guilty for ever being involved, and I feel used, and then I feel dumb for acting so out of character. A part of me misses him, and a part of me hates him. It's like, when will it ever end?

 

When you first start NC, the first few days you think, "I can't do this. I'm going to just die if I don't speak to him". And then days go by, and you don't even desire contact. Just like that, you've began to move on. But then...I feel like it's a once a week or once every 2 weeks-kind of thing where I just feel this way. I hate it. Does THIS feeling end?

[AlwaysGrowing]

You are just processing everything. Once you have...it will end.

[Lillyfree]

A part of me misses him, and a part of me hates him. It's like, when will it ever end?

 

you miss the attention, the good feelings you had when in contact with him. not HIM. and guess what, those feelings were all you.

 

and yes, it ends. you are weaning yourself and as time goes you'll miss that contact less and less. be strong and all the best.

[Mamas girl]

I was going to post a thread....you took every word out of my mouth. I feel the exact same way. Can be fine a few days; can be extremely sad a couple. No desire to contact him though and am thankful he has not contacted me as it is very hard for me to ignore. What I seem to be struggling with the most lately is the questions of why he didn't want me, why wasn't I good enough. But that passes as well and I try my best to stay strong. No contact is the only way. And it must be forever. My heart goes out to everyone who is in or coming out of an affair. More times than not it is a lot more pain than you could have ever thought possible.