igothithard Posted December 15, 2013 Posted December 15, 2013 (edited) This is my insane story of love. I had to write my story to empty my head and see how blinded i was while in love I still love this women, Am i crazy? Share some thoughts with me please! Edited December 15, 2013 by a LoveShack.org Moderator 1
solostman Posted December 15, 2013 Posted December 15, 2013 You deserve someone much better, someone who wouldn't hurt you this way. I'm sorry things are this way, and we must come to accept that some people aren't good for us. I'm struggling to accept that the love of my life isn't good for me, she hurt me countless times and brought me in again only to hurt me again. I don't deserve it even though I love her so much, it's not good for myself. You must focus on yourself ! Escape the abuse! 2
2fargone Posted December 15, 2013 Posted December 15, 2013 (edited) This is my insane story of love. I had to write my story to empty my head and see how blinded i was while in love I still love this women, Am i crazy? Share some thoughts with me please! You're not crazy. I've had one of these. Just realise there is a dynamic going on between people like this, and the people that are attracted to them. You can't win this, you won't come out happy. Edited December 15, 2013 by a LoveShack.org Moderator 1
Author igothithard Posted December 15, 2013 Author Posted December 15, 2013 (edited) It made a big impact on my life. I'm back in the Netherlands again and still struggling to get back on my feed and move on. I lost everything! I filled divorce, but I still cant wrap my mind around all this! Was it a complicated relation because she was on pills, a planned and false relation, a relation with to much baggage, Its hard to close off and move on when you not really know the reason, sometimes i start to think that it was me. Its just to much. Edited December 15, 2013 by igothithard
Haydn Posted December 15, 2013 Posted December 15, 2013 (edited) This so sad and i know what you are going through. I did pretty much the same. She was very very addictive and i was tapping veins for her every hour of the day. I am 4-5 months NC now and things do improve. I couldn`t write down my story like you because the last 3 years have been the worst of my life in respect to losing sight of myself, my character my personality went from fun fun to panicky nervous wreak of a person. You will come out it. Takes time but write here as much as you feel you can. This place has been the biggest help to me. Take care. This is my insane story of love. I had to write my story to empty my head and see how blinded i was while in love I still love this women, Am i crazy? Share some thoughts with me please! Edited December 15, 2013 by a LoveShack.org Moderator 1
Author igothithard Posted December 15, 2013 Author Posted December 15, 2013 (edited) This so sad and i know what you are going through. I did pretty much the same. She was very very addictive and i was tapping veins for her every hour of the day. I am 4-5 months NC now and things do improve. I couldn`t write down my story like you because the last 3 years have been the worst of my life in respect to losing sight of myself, my character my personality went from fun fun to panicky nervous wreak of a person. You will come out it. Takes time but write here as much as you feel you can. This place has been the biggest help to me. Take care. I tried to write to her, but she closed all the doors and left me behind with nothing. I even had to take distance from our shared properties, because the day after she booted me by falls accuse, she took 2 credit cards and started to empty them. I had to protect myself so they don't come back on me. I lost not only her, but had 4 amazing step-kids from her. The youngest was 2 when i first met him, he is now 8. I took him as my own, but i cant contact him anymore. Edited December 15, 2013 by igothithard
Haydn Posted December 15, 2013 Posted December 15, 2013 You should not have anything to do with her now. Detach yourself slowly, work out you need. If she wants anything from you then she will have to be the one shouting and writing to you. But please go no contact now. Losing the child will of course be very very hard but you somehow have to push on now and find a new door to open. I am here if you need to talk. I will watch out for your thread. Take care. I tried to write to her, but she closed all the doors and left me behind with nothing. I even had to take distance from our shared properties, because the day after she booted me by falls accuse, she took 2 credit cards and started to empty them. I had to protect myself so they don't come back on me. I lost not only her, but had 4 amazing step-kids from her. The youngest was 2 when i first met him, he is now 8. I took him as my own, but i cant contact him anymore. 1
Author igothithard Posted December 15, 2013 Author Posted December 15, 2013 Thanks guys! Trying to move on.
Author igothithard Posted December 15, 2013 Author Posted December 15, 2013 (edited) What happened to the story? Just look under my profile, and click my website for the story. Edited December 15, 2013 by igothithard
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