sambo77 Posted December 13, 2013 Posted December 13, 2013 Yeah...so maybe most...no...ALL of my previous BUs have been "pick myself up, dust myself off, get back on the horse ASAP" kind of affairs. But this one is different...it's forced me to learn (or maybe deeply contemplate) some BIG issues: (a) Is the proverbial "horse" in the above analogy a place I wanna keep parking my butt, falling off, and...like a fu&&in broken record getting straight back on again? Banging your head against a brick wall gets old and bloody hurts. Only a dumbass would unquestioningly keep that going without taking a second to wonder whether this "cycle" is REALLY the best way to live one's life?? I'm thinking just MAYBE I don't wanna ride the horse any longer...maybe I'm gonna try walking...and look into monastic living... (b) OK...as much as I don't wanna admit it...as much as I NEVER could have predicted it in childhood...and as much as my parents might have wanted to shield me from it...I now accept that it's true - being a human sometimes means just "hurting." I mean literally throbbing with a form of emotional pain that does not subside for lengthy periods of time, regardless of what you do and in spite of your pathetic efforts to diminish it. I can't help wondering if it'd be better to prepare kids for that...?! © So, if brains spend 90% of their time torturing the f7ck out of us with endless possible negative connotations, worries, and anxieties (the "what ifs" "oh my gods") anyway...they up that to 99% during a BU (adding powerful "she'll be enjoying great sex with him" "what if you never recover from this" "this is all your fault" and a whole barrage of others into the already torturous mix). Thanks brains. (d) Our major design flaw is that the psychological equivalent to oxygen (love) is not as readily available as oxygen and comes from the most unreliable, volatile source on the planet (other people). 5
FortunateSon Posted December 13, 2013 Posted December 13, 2013 Sambo, I really enjoy your posts, they are really well thought out and introspective. I relate to them very well, they always make me think. 2
LadyM Posted December 14, 2013 Posted December 14, 2013 Such a creative and intelligent post. Out-of-the-box kind of thinking. Love that! Thanks. 1
Author sambo77 Posted December 14, 2013 Author Posted December 14, 2013 Thanks guys...nice to know other people connect and feel the same stuff I do...even though I wish I didn't feel this stuff :-(
Qactus Posted December 14, 2013 Posted December 14, 2013 Thanks guys...nice to know other people connect and feel the same stuff I do...even though I wish I didn't feel this stuff :-( very well said! Just loved it. Unfortunately there's nothing we can do.. Thats way people live these days and thats how it will end.
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