penultimatethrow Posted December 13, 2013 Posted December 13, 2013 (edited) So I know I shouldn't of but I looked at her old online dating profile. It's restarted and she's rewritten it. With a ****ton of lies. (yeah yeah that's what we all do i know but this time is personal) i'm angry at myself for caring and for letting it affect me. i'm angry at her for lying to me with all her ****ing promises. i'm angry at her for lying to the world about how not-****ed-up she is. i'm angry at her for lying to herself. i want to confront her with all this rage but I know it's a bad idea i'm scared that she's sorted all her issues and is now going to have an awesome relationship that we once had but without all her baggage but then even if she hasn't i feel sorry for whatever poor **** comes next and gets hit with all her **** i want to hit things and shout and i'm really ****ing angry that i even care after all the bullcrap i put up with from her. i should have ****ing shouted at her a thousand times but instead i took it and took it and took it. maybe that's why i'm so ****ing angry now. maybe if i had let it out with her we'd still be together now. she always loved drama despite her constant lies that she didn't. i'm angry at myself for that too. thanks for listening to me rant. edit: sorry for all the swearing Edited December 13, 2013 by penultimatethrow apology 1
Mariposa10 Posted December 13, 2013 Posted December 13, 2013 It's ok to feel like this, I remember one time after talking to my ex, I was so angry I wanted to smash/break things. I had never felt so angry, but it's just part of the process. In my breakup, things went like this: denial, depression, anger and acceptance. Hang in there, things will be better. We just need to let time do its thing. 2
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