btvdts Posted December 12, 2013 Posted December 12, 2013 I'm going on two months NC now. did all the recommended stuff with social media and phone. haven't heard a peep from her. I've thought a thousand times go check her fb. but I haven't. deactivated it. I know one thing. people don't put sad pictures and what not on there, so all I'd see is how happy she is. she told me she had thought about breaking up with me for a few weeks before she did it. she actually stringed me along because I had to confront her about our relationship. she hadn't even planned on breaking up with me that day. so why the F**k am I crying? two months later? WHY because I love her, I hate myself for it. I hate how I probably don't even cross her mind, yet all though I am focusing on myself, she still manages to somehow creep into my thoughts. I hate I can honestly say we had a great relationship, and how it didn't go bad until the end because she no longer wanted to be with me, yet stringed me along, but I noticed the difference in her, the so called red flags, but I was dumb and blinded to accept it and prepare myself. I know a lot of you out there have been through this, but lets throw this in the mix...her two beautiful girls...that I fell in love with! so hey guess what I got dumped by 3 girls!! in one day...never to see again, yet long for every F**king day... holidays coming up a good reminder?? yea because I was going to ask her to marry me during the holidays...true story.. now.. I'm here..i know i'll heal..in time..she told me I was an amazing bf and that any girl would be lucky to have me but she didn't know what she wanted right now...doesn't mean ****..any girl? any girl? how about the girl that I wanted? HER! I haven't checked her fb like I said but I think there was another guy before I even left...hope he's all she wanted.. cause obviously I wasn't. srry guys I'm venting....
Mariposa10 Posted December 12, 2013 Posted December 12, 2013 This is the perfect place to vent because we all understand what you're going through... Hang in there, buddy. Let time do its thing, everything will be fine. There's light at the end of the tunnel. 2
Amaury Posted December 12, 2013 Posted December 12, 2013 Vent all you want man it feels better letting it out even if only for a little. I'm sorry your going through this but at least know that you aren't the only one out there suffering. I am also still in love with my ex who I hate because of the person she turned into (or was all along). I don't want to love her but just like you and me when we said it we actually meant it. This sucks but we will all get through our heart ache with time. You will find someone who will make sense of everything and you will be glad things didn't work out with everyone else. Hang in there
Reels Posted December 12, 2013 Posted December 12, 2013 You are not even alone with this feeling. Seriously, it's very hard, I agree, just do what you prefer, read something, write something.. Whatever interests you. You may feel better.
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