Just smile Posted December 11, 2013 Posted December 11, 2013 I've gotten really bad news that a friend of my ex and me friend who was 47 died suddenly , he wasn't a great close friend but definitely someone we both knew and spoke to when we bumped into him. I knew this guys girlfriend also. I was shocked and saddened to hear news and more surprised my ex didn't reach out to tell me. I'm not doing well lately, I got more bad news yesterday that my ex husband who took me back to court yesterday to reduce his child support , well it was reduced by 100 bucks which financially I can't even fathom right now. I feel so lost , so sad, so hurt,so much pain inside, it's just a horrible feeling,and I cry all day long on and off. I am trying to accept the fact this man who I spent five years of my life with , is gone, and doesn't care for me, or miss me enough to reach out. Poof. He's gone.i feel empty and so very lost . And everything else that is being thrown at me now seems daunting. I'm not sure how much more I can take,
d0nnivain Posted December 11, 2013 Posted December 11, 2013 Death really takes it out of you. On top of everything else, it's just one more punch. I am so sorry for the loss of your friend at young age. Somehow you will get through this. Is there a nearby support group you can turn to? I'm assuming you can't afford therapy but ask around if there are no or low cost options; you need to be healthy for your kids.
Author Just smile Posted December 11, 2013 Author Posted December 11, 2013 I have a couple of awesome friends thank god. My kids have been witnessing me too sad lately and they are worried... I cannot for the life of me get over the fact this man has yet to contact me!?!?!?! What a cruel callous person. It's so obvious he doesn't love me. Pain in my heart.
stillafool Posted December 11, 2013 Posted December 11, 2013 Maybe it's because your ex didn't consider this guy a close friend but more as an acquaintance as you described above. Your ex is not as caring as you are about what happened to the deceased man. Don't take his lack of communication regarding the mans death as an opportunity to hurt you. I think he is probably busy with other things and didn't put too much thought into it. Do you work out side of your home?
Author Just smile Posted December 11, 2013 Author Posted December 11, 2013 Unemployed right now looking for a full time job. Lord knows I need it. I have an interview tomorrow. I hope I get this job, I have too much time on my hands and it's driving me crazy. I am fighting the urge to mail him back this gigantic Xmas stocking he had bought me with my name on it. With a note , here, I hope your new distraction will be able to use this. BUT I KNOW ITS NOT A GOOD IDEA. I'm losing it! His track record has always proved he comes back , this time. NOTHING .. I'm shocked.
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