iworthmore Posted December 10, 2013 Posted December 10, 2013 hello LS community. i am new to this website and this is my first post here. i am sure it will be very helpful for me as i see how supportive the community of this website. well.. i had my first relationship ended 2 months ago. despite it was short around 6 months but i loved this girl so much. we had multiple breakups mostly about trust issues. i know she isn't the one for me. and i deserve better. i am very successful guy. good looking and in great shape. but the feeling of lack of self-esteem and pain is not getting any better. i miss her so much and still deeply in love with her even i think she already has another guy but my love for her not fading. i will never think of getting her back and not doing anything about it. its been 2 months of total NC. she showed many mixed signals but i didn't care. mostly, relationships have great time memories but mine is full of bad ones. all about her lying and making up things but after every break up she came back desperately want me back. me as an idiot always took her back ( love is blind) and within 1 month she end it again. i have to mention that i initiated the break up twice and she begged me back. we totally have 4-5 break ups or breaks because she end things every time she gets mad and then regret it. well.. this isn't the sub-forum for my story,but why i feel so sad? why i think of her all the time? pain and trouble are the only things i got from her and i still think about her and miss her so much. i am trying to focus on my self as many of you suggest here but it seems not helping at the moment. its been 2 months and i think its getting worse. she never contacted me and me either. it's very hard to have those feelings of anger, pain, depression and in the end love remains as the most powerful feeling. she's not the one for me, i deserve better and i can find better. but i am stuck with those thoughts about her. its so hard and painful. the most painful experience i ever had in my life. it will take time but this the clock is ticking very slowly.
Omei Posted December 11, 2013 Posted December 11, 2013 Relationship was short and full of issues. I think once you meet somone that treats you well and lasts longer you're going to be blown away at how fast your gonna let go of the old girl. Not saying this is gonna happen but it's my prediction. 1
PreciousOne Posted December 11, 2013 Posted December 11, 2013 I really feel for you. I know that break ups can be difficult my sister just came out of a relationship and was in a near depression but as the days weeks and months went by she saw things clearly and realized that they weren't meant to be together she didn't think the pain would ever go away. When you feel as if you miss her focus on the bad times you had and remind yourself that you are better off. I hope things get easier for you love
rec88 Posted December 11, 2013 Posted December 11, 2013 she's not the one for me, i deserve better and i can find better. but i am stuck with those thoughts about her. You said it... Don't hide from those uncomfortable/painful thoughts and feelings. Force yourself to think these things through and find answers within yourself. You're right, it won't be quick or easy, but the sooner you confront them, the sooner you will overcome them.
Author iworthmore Posted December 11, 2013 Author Posted December 11, 2013 thank you for your answers. i know this happened and still happens to many ppl everyday. i think time working against me. i find my self thinking of her over and over again even while i am at work and while being so busy she's on my head!!. i find myself isolated from the outer world. i don't hang out that much because seeing them together will hurt like hell and all the progress if any made will vanish. i know i sound pathetic but i am sure all of you know what i am talking about. venting here makes me feel better for short amount of time. i was going to post thread on how to get her back but that's not what i want. i want my life back. once again. thank you i will stick to it that... iworthmore
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