I'msolostatthemoment Posted December 10, 2013 Posted December 10, 2013 I worked with someone for a long time. I was going through a terrible time in my life, and he helped me through it, comforted, consoled me, and saved me from so much more hell. He was my knight in shining armour he really was. He triggered me He told me he liked me, flirted with me, complimented me, and had the greatest level of respect and consideration for me. He tried to touch me a few times, and then finally one day he put his hand on my hand. The same day, he asked me for a kiss and if he could hold me, which I let him. He was so nervous asking me, he was looking at the ground, and his hands were shaking when he was holding me, and very slowly grazed his lips across my cheek, and kissed me on my cheek. It was like time stood still, and it was without doubt the most romantic moment of my entire life. He broke from holding me, and looked straight into my eyes, but I was quite taken and really shy and looked a little towards the ground, but could feel him looking in my eyes. Please son't say of course he does, but could some of the guys explain what he might be feeling, I know by him he was longing to hold me, please help. What could he have said if I looked into his eyes? I'm so lost.
ShyGuy5 Posted December 10, 2013 Posted December 10, 2013 To me that was his way of saying this is what I can be for you, do you want me? Like if he was on a TV, holding you was his audition and now he is looking at the judges (you) to see how you feel. 1
MrNate 2.0 Posted December 10, 2013 Posted December 10, 2013 I think I just read the winter version of The Notebook. 2
Author I'msolostatthemoment Posted December 10, 2013 Author Posted December 10, 2013 If I were to tell you everything I went through, what I fought for, I think it would make a brilliant movie. A story of huge endurance, determination, fighting for what was right, and never giving up, and having this man beside me through the entire thing. I went through a horrific warzone with my employer. They were treating me badly because of an underlying illness I have, and only recently finally got diagnosed with. I was severely harassed, intimidated and put through severe levels of psychological abuse, hardship and cruelty by my employer just because I was sick from time to time. My employer put me through such severe stress I was in and out of hospital, and having seizures with stress, anorexia, nervous breakdowns, anxiety and depression, and felt suicidal at one point. I went to a number of unions for help, who were useless. I learned the law, anf fought my employer by myself, until I could try and get some help. I was completely alone, scared, and very intimidated at work every day for 5 years. I never wanted to give in and quit and leave my job as thats what my employer wanted. What they were doing was wrong, and I kept believing every day I would get help to fight them, and bring them to justice. I eventually got a lawyer, and this is the man who I speak of. He gave me hope, strength, determination, and never to give up or give in. I felt every day like America did the day they were bombed by Pearl Harbor, afraid, scared, intimidated, not knowing what to do, but America believed they could fight and would win, and that's how I felt every day for 5 years. Anyways, this was what my lawyer did for me. I won my case. I am still in contact with him, but I miss him so much every single day. He saved my life, my health, my heart and my soul. We didn't just work together, we fought for what was right, and what was wrong, and my relationship with him meant the world to me. I miss him so much its killing me every day. I have no idea how he feels though.
ShyGuy5 Posted December 10, 2013 Posted December 10, 2013 He is your lawyer. This opens a whole new can of worms 1
Author I'msolostatthemoment Posted December 10, 2013 Author Posted December 10, 2013 He is your lawyer. This opens a whole new can of worms I am from New York, but have lived in another country for years. The relationship between a client and a lawyer is not forbidden as is in the US. What I mean is a lawyer could have a relationship with a client and it wouldn't be forbidden. It would be frowned upon, but its not illegal. Anyways, this is all that happened. I miss him every day. My heart aches for him, for his presence, to be near him, to be in his arms. I never felt so safe as when I was in his arms. He always protected me, and made me feel safe, and comforted me. Its killing me all the time. In fact, I'm here crying about how much I miss him. I just needed to talk to someone, someone to listen, or understand me, and maybe give their opinion about all of this.
ShyGuy5 Posted December 10, 2013 Posted December 10, 2013 Now that everything is done, I guess why not go for it. Have you reached out to him about it? 1
Author I'msolostatthemoment Posted December 10, 2013 Author Posted December 10, 2013 Now that everything is done, I guess why not go for it. Have you reached out to him about it? Thanks for listening to me, and all your replies ShyGuy5. Its giving me some comfort here at the moment. I wouldn't know what to say, or do, of how to approach him at all? DO you think he ever had feelings for me?
ShyGuy5 Posted December 10, 2013 Posted December 10, 2013 I can't tell you about him, but I don't know why someone would do that if they didn't have feelings. I would suggest reaching out to him. Doesn't matter what you say because you need to get this out of your system. I am sure it is eating at you every night and you need to either give it a try if he does or close the door if he doesn't.
Author I'msolostatthemoment Posted December 10, 2013 Author Posted December 10, 2013 I can't tell you about him, but I don't know why someone would do that if they didn't have feelings. I would suggest reaching out to him. Doesn't matter what you say because you need to get this out of your system. I am sure it is eating at you every night and you need to either give it a try if he does or close the door if he doesn't. I have never loved anyone, or had such a huge level of respect for any other man I have ever known. He is up on a huge pedestal to me for how he treated me, his comfort, how much he respected me for what I was fighting for, he stood by me, he really listened and understood me - and that is the biggest thing. I just never felt so safe with anyone else as I did with him. I feel so empty and lost inside without seeing him as much. He told me twice he liked me. He didn;t say it that he liked me in a friend sense. He said it in a serious tone to me. Was that his way of saying he had feelings for me? Was him longing to hold me, and how he did hold me another way of saying how he felt? The way he held me that day, what would that say about how he feels about me?
ShyGuy5 Posted December 10, 2013 Posted December 10, 2013 Cant you reach out to him and say its been a while we should catch up over lunch or something
Author I'msolostatthemoment Posted December 10, 2013 Author Posted December 10, 2013 When I finished working with him, I asked if we could keep in contact, with which he said he wanted to. He said I can call him anytime I want, email him anytime I want, and call into his office to see him anytime I want, but that is all he has said. I have called him a few times, once or twice when I needed urgent legal advice, and he helped me without charging me or anything. I have called into his office to see him, and he always makes time for me, no matter how busy he is, which is very sweet of him. I'll see him soon, and will see how he is etc. I can always tell by the way he looks at me, and the look in his eyes when we make eye contact that he knows there is something there with us. Ok, how or what could I say to him? Your advice would be great if I can get all of this off my chest someway. But then again, with all I have said in my posts above has he already said alot of this to me?
ShyGuy5 Posted December 10, 2013 Posted December 10, 2013 You are going to have to make the move in this case because of the nature of the situation. He can't tell you how he feels because of his position I would surmise. He was careful to ask your permission to hold you, etc. It is a shame that both of you might be feeling the same, but because neither is willing to take the chance and speak up both of you are left in this position. If he likes you, then it really doesn't matter what you say, you just need to say it and get it out of your system. Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.
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