youaremysunshine Posted December 9, 2013 Posted December 9, 2013 So basically my ex and I went on a trip from Toronto to New York City because he had a roofing job through a friend there and we could had a place to stay. While we are there he decides to hitchhike NYC to San Francisco jack Kerouac style. At first I was excited by the idea but when I realized I would be sleeping outside I decided it was too dangerous, besides I couldn't leave my life in Toronto behind. He cried and begged me to join him on this trip which he believes to be of great spiritual importance (or something) he was more heartbroken than I expected, because he is usually quite cold. He said he was never coming back Toronto so I offered to meet him in British Columbia, as I have family there. He said he doubted that it would happen. He calls me occasionally and responds to my emails. He's made it to San Fran, after taking a detour through the southern u.s. He's in Oregon now and I'm not sure where he's going next. He's been on the road three months. I can't get him off my mind and I even dream of him. I know I should go n/c but I worry something will happen to him out there. He says it's over but I can't let go , I refuse to accept that I will never see him again. I wonder if I will regret not going on this adventure my whole life.
Author youaremysunshine Posted December 9, 2013 Author Posted December 9, 2013 I am really tempted to just beg him to meet me in pender harbour, b.c but I have a job and rent to pay. Unlike him, he's free.
Author youaremysunshine Posted December 9, 2013 Author Posted December 9, 2013 I'm basically overwelhemed with feelings of regret, it's SO hard for me not to contact him, I think of him all day. I tried to date a perfectly decent guy from my hometown and couldn't get over my ex.
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