Ki11a_FTW Posted December 6, 2013 Posted December 6, 2013 Hi, some of you may have seen some of my last posts. I originally moved in with my gf in June in LA and had a TON of problems and I am finally back in my home state. We had to fly back together because we already had tickets to fly back together scheduled from earlier. We were originally just visiting but now I'm staying for good. She's still visiting. The breakup was mutual for the most part. We never saw\spoke to each other since we got off the airport. Right before we left she had an emotional breakdown and held my hand/kissed me etc. I tried to calm her down and told her that if she was really gonna have such a hard time I'd talk to her more about it if she texted/called me. When it was time to split up she hugged and kissed me and told me she loves me. 2 days have passed since we left the airport(we left on the 4th), and now it is REALLY hitting me. She never contacted me yet and I'm dying. I tried hanging out with some buddies and what not the past few days, but its just not how it used to be. I have been having dreams about her/us and it is killing me. She's so beautiful, clean and kind. I will never find another girl like her here. Every guy our age drools over her. I'm back here and all I really remember is the good times we had together. I hate to say it but I want her back. And if I came to her and told her that , it'd blow up in my face. I love her so much and I just feel dead inside. This is the longest we haven't talked and she's normally the first to come to me. What do I do guys? How do I handle this? I'm only 21 and never thought I'd have to go through something like this. For all I know she's glad I'm gone.
Thedafox Posted December 6, 2013 Posted December 6, 2013 Just stay strong with No Contact, it's tough as hell but it will work out in your favor.
Author Ki11a_FTW Posted December 6, 2013 Author Posted December 6, 2013 Thanks for replying, my #1 effort is to not contact her. I deleted her # when I first got home to make sure I couldn't.
Thedafox Posted December 6, 2013 Posted December 6, 2013 Thanks for replying, my #1 effort is to not contact her. I deleted her # when I first got home to make sure I couldn't. Would you like someone to talk to? I'm generally on Skype, if you have one.
Author Ki11a_FTW Posted December 6, 2013 Author Posted December 6, 2013 I can chat on Skype on my phone, I'm still in the process of having my PC shipped home.
Thedafox Posted December 6, 2013 Posted December 6, 2013 I can chat on Skype on my phone, I'm still in the process of having my PC shipped home. My Skype is Thedafox44 (Clever name, eh?)
Simplysimon Posted December 6, 2013 Posted December 6, 2013 If your missing someone change your aim.... Bite your lip push thru, you can do it...if she wants you she will be back if she doesn't it wasn't meant to be,...cry it out , meet another girl and remember she's not the only girl who can make you happy. In time you will get there but Everyman must go thru heart break
Author Ki11a_FTW Posted December 15, 2013 Author Posted December 15, 2013 Update: So after I find out she cheated on me with some drug dealer last April, I made it public on twitter that I was done with her and she can ruin her life as she pleases. She was very hostile to admitting to cheating. "fine, I cheated on you, suck a dick and get the **** over it." I was just like "lol" because the guy it was with is total scum of the town. No job, no car, deals, etc. So then she has sex with him more, and also another kid who is also hated. After I find that out I was like "This chick is psycho, she had sex with 3 guys in past week." So there I am doing my own thing with my buddies, when she starts posting inappropriate photos of her and this other kid on twitter. (the one she cheated on me with last April.) I was done at that point completely, knowing she's making the biggest idiot of herself was very satisfying for me. Later that night she breaks. She texted me hundreds of times trying to get me to come over and talk to her. I kept saying No and telling her she has the other 2 guys to talk too. Eventually I got her to stop. But she calls me the next morning and tells me she is at my house. I let her in to hear what she has to say. I find out she slept with the two guys in one day, was doing it to get me mad (which failed), now she was threatening to kill herself. I told her there was no say in hell I was taking her back. I told her she could stay with me at my place until it was time for her to leave, as long as she started taking care of herself and stopped ruining herself with these two dudes. She more than agreed but she is still begging me to get back with her? Can anyone please tell me what she was trying to accomplish? I am not conceited but I am a normal sized, in-shape hansom man. Why was she degrading herself? She cheated when I was working a lot last April but I still don't see what made her do that. I bought her nice things, took her out to dinner, showed I cared etc. We also had good sex. All I know is that right before she cheated she was wierd and would freak when she came over and I bought myself something new without telling her. "when did you buy this?! You don't tell me anything!!". Then she would cry and ****, like what? I think she just needs too much attention. She cries every day saying she hates herself/etc for what she did.
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