btvdts Posted December 5, 2013 Posted December 5, 2013 its been over a month of NC. I went NC a week after she dumped me and kicked me out. took a week to go NC after the dump cause I had to talk to her so I could move out. I moved to another state so the odds of seeing her randomly is none. I have no memories of us here in this state, yet the smallest things remind me of her. We used to play the Claw machines together at Walmart or wherever there was one. now I see one and I don't dare go near it. I'm 90% sure there was another guy even before I left and after reading all these threads, I doubt she ever thinks about me. I keep telling myself she gave up on you the first time there was a problem, yet you never gave up on her when she was the problem! yet still doesn't do much. I miss her two girls who I fell in love with and took care of them as if they were my own. At night I miss helping the girls with their homework and helping the youngest learn to read. I miss tucking them into bed and then getting into bed with the ex. I know I wasn't/aren't perfect, but I sure tried my hardest to give them a good life. I was going to propose to her this Christmas. Even had a guy lined up to buy my favorite car that I restored(have another car so I'd be ok) to buy her the ring. I guess I got lucky on that part because she dumped me before the sale. for the moment the car pisses me off because its a reminder that its here and she's gone. my b-day, thanksgiving, and the oldest daughters b-day has gone by. that was hard with no contact from them. last year was a different story, and I guess so will next year. sorry just wanted to put my thoughts somewhere.
AnyaNova Posted December 6, 2013 Posted December 6, 2013 its been over a month of NC. I went NC a week after she dumped me and kicked me out. took a week to go NC after the dump cause I had to talk to her so I could move out. I moved to another state so the odds of seeing her randomly is none. I have no memories of us here in this state, yet the smallest things remind me of her. We used to play the Claw machines together at Walmart or wherever there was one. now I see one and I don't dare go near it. I'm 90% sure there was another guy even before I left and after reading all these threads, I doubt she ever thinks about me. I keep telling myself she gave up on you the first time there was a problem, yet you never gave up on her when she was the problem! yet still doesn't do much. I miss her two girls who I fell in love with and took care of them as if they were my own. At night I miss helping the girls with their homework and helping the youngest learn to read. I miss tucking them into bed and then getting into bed with the ex. I know I wasn't/aren't perfect, but I sure tried my hardest to give them a good life. I was going to propose to her this Christmas. Even had a guy lined up to buy my favorite car that I restored(have another car so I'd be ok) to buy her the ring. I guess I got lucky on that part because she dumped me before the sale. for the moment the car pisses me off because its a reminder that its here and she's gone. my b-day, thanksgiving, and the oldest daughters b-day has gone by. that was hard with no contact from them. last year was a different story, and I guess so will next year. sorry just wanted to put my thoughts somewhere. That's what this place is here for. Lost relationship? Post. Girlfriend dumped you? Post. Boyfriend cheated his lying (#*#& on you? Post. Had an ex who really did a jedi mind (#*#& on you and disappear and then you're better and you find out your new crush is married (in other words, me )? Post. This is what this whole forum is for. I am sorry. You situation sounds painful. And it must be difficult on the children as well, if they got to know you and love you.
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