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Vinsanity1307

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Vinsanity1307 Established Member

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Well alone and just having another rough night. I even rearranged my room for the umpteenth time. Even found an old poem I wrote to my ex under my ex. Just got me sad. (I am no poet). Only wrote 2 poems in my life...When my grandfather died and while with my ex... Again just venting bad night..Sorry for the wasted thread...

 

When we first started dating there was a feeling I had never known,

 

But from that point on I knew I wanted you as my own.

 

All the memorable times that you and I spent,

 

You truly will never know how much those times really meant.

 

From the numerous “smoke breaks” we shared in the back hall,

 

To the passionate kissing as I pinned you against the wall.

 

The numerous nights when we held each other so tight

 

Again I was reassured I never wanted you out of my sight

 

The one that stands out that is always memorable and clear

 

Our first trip to Niagara in which I still wish we were there.

 

We ve had our fair share of countless conflicts and fights.

 

But regardless of them all I still crave the incredible nights.

 

I hope you have this feeling that you have given to me

 

Cause all that I know is your all that I see

 

Your all that I think of during the time we are apart

 

I just hope you know that you will always have my heart.

Simon Phoenix Established Member

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I would burn that poem right away. Having it around and retyping it isn't going to do you an ounce of good.

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Vinsanity1307 Established Member

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I know just wanted to share and vent..Bad night Im sure you know how its goes...

Simon Phoenix Established Member

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I know just wanted to share and vent..Bad night Im sure you know how its goes...

 

Sure I do. When I had those nights I threw stuff like that in the trash. The whole process is brutal enough without self-imposing pain, ya know?

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RDawg Established Member

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Vin. Have you considered finding a new girlfriend? Maybe a codependent, fat one with low self esteem, then she will be less likely to leave you.

 

That's my plan.

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LOL! made my night :laugh:

 

 

Vin. Have you considered finding a new girlfriend? Maybe a codependent, fat one with low self esteem, then she will be less likely to leave you.

 

That's my plan.

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I am just going to assume that was a joke (hopefully). Anyways I am clearly not in a state to be in another relationship..Clearly...and Nothing against heavier women just not what I am into...

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Sorry hon :( it happens, though! Venting can be good. I know that sometimes it helps to just be and to get everything off your chest.

 

::hugs::

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Vin. The best advice I can give you is that once you healed from this you must avoid women and relationships at all costs. It is the only way to prevent this sort of pain.

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Vinsanity1307 Established Member

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Sadly I agree with you. I feel that whenever I do heal.. It will form a guard that I wont recuperate from

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Vin. Have you considered finding a new girlfriend? Maybe a codependent, fat one with low self esteem, then she will be less likely to leave you.

 

That's my plan.

 

I know this was said in jest, however what happens when the codependent fat girl loses weight? She gets confidence then she leaves because she thinks she can do better. =)

 

Been there done that.

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Throw it away, problem solved. I just tossed some old pictures, it's actually quite nice when you toss it.

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Vin- you continue to indulgent in pain and I must admit 7 months post BU I still do but I literally jolt myself out of it and try my hardest to acknowledge that it's utterly detrimental for me. We can't continue to hope for a better past and remain stagnant in time. Today I woke up and felt that same pain in my chest again. I kept telling myself "today I will make it a better day, today I will make this a better day, today I will snap out of it." I try to cheer myself on because quiet honestly no one else will do but myself. Be strong buddy and it's time to start changing old habits.

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I did toss the poem away, but seeing I already saw it; It has done its damage for the night if that makes any sense.. Yes I have seen that thread when wanting to contact your ex thank you....And Jdp you seem to have some fighting strong will power there. I envy that cause I lost all mine...im still here though for the time being...so i guess thats a plus

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I can only fight back. I can't guarantee. I'll win every battle but I make the attempt to fight it.

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I did toss the poem away, but seeing I already saw it; It has done its damage for the night if that makes any sense.. Yes I have seen that thread when wanting to contact your ex thank you....And Jdp you seem to have some fighting strong will power there. I envy that cause I lost all mine...im still here though for the time being...so i guess thats a plus

 

You only threw it away after re-typing it up on here.

 

Next time, see it, throw it away, done.

 

And no offense here, and I'm totally supportive and feel bad that you're suffering, but the whoa is me attitude is getting old. You have the strength, you just need to recognize it. Stop giving up so easily.

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I know I am clinically depressed. I have accepted that.....The cash issue is legit especially with the holidays here. Hopefully after the holidays I can gather some extra cash... I dont expect anyone to feel bad. I was just venting in this thread, and it was how I feel....trying to relieve some pain and stress with it...

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I know I am clinically depressed. I have accepted that.....The cash issue is legit especially with the holidays here. Hopefully after the holidays I can gather some extra cash... I dont expect anyone to feel bad. I was just venting in this thread, and it was how I feel....trying to relieve some pain and stress with it...

 

Here are 10 Mental Health Clinics within 10 miles of Worcester, MA:

 

Mental Health Treatment Facility Locator

 

Here are three free/low-cost health clinics within 5 miles of Worcester, MA:

 

Free / Low-Cost Health Clinic Finder | Prescription Assistance Program

 

Here are all the NAMI affiliates in Massachusetts:

 

NAMI: National Alliance on Mental Illness | State & Local NAMIs

 

UMass Medical School is located in Worcester, and they have a Psychiatry school that likely has students that can provide free/low-cost services:

 

UMass Medical School - Worcester

 

11 Free/Low-Cost Clinics in/near Worcester, MA:

 

HRSA - Find a Health Center - Search Page

 

Like I said Vin, I support you, but you can choose your attitude, and right now you are choosing to be defeated.

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We gave him the same advice...good to see it reinforced.

 

Maybe a google map will help?

 

 

Here are 10 Mental Health Clinics within 10 miles of Worcester, MA:

 

Mental Health Treatment Facility Locator

 

Here are three free/low-cost health clinics within 5 miles of Worcester, MA:

 

Free / Low-Cost Health Clinic Finder | Prescription Assistance Program

 

Here are all the NAMI affiliates in Massachusetts:

 

NAMI: National Alliance on Mental Illness | State & Local NAMIs

 

UMass Medical School is located in Worcester, and they have a Psychiatry school that likely has students that can provide free/low-cost services:

 

UMass Medical School - Worcester

 

11 Free/Low-Cost Clinics in/near Worcester, MA:

 

HRSA - Find a Health Center - Search Page

 

Like I said Vin, I support you, but you can choose your attitude, and right now you are choosing to be defeated.

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I will look into these.....again was just venting with the thread

reddragon588 Established Member

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I will look into these.....again was just venting with the thread

 

Venting is good. Action is better. You can do this!

organizedchaos Established Member

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I will look into these.....again was just venting with the thread

 

You vent with every thread you start every other day. Stop it. Get help. You were going to go away from this forum for awhile because honestly, I think posting the same threads every other day is hurting you more than helping you. It keeps you wallowing in your self pity.

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Venting once in a while is good. Too much of it, just like with anything else, is bad. At this point I think you are dedicating your life to ruminating, wallowing and releasing instead of moving. You are stagnant. I hope you look at some of the links that reddragon provided and start being proactive, even if that start is admitting that you need a professional to point you in the right direction.

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