what was happening to us?

[KatherineM]

My story starts like this: we met 6 months ago, became friends, never thought of having something with him, but now I realised I always liked him in a special way. We went out in september with a couple of friends, nothing out of the ordinary, when something happened. They call it falling in love, I dont know what it was, I found out later that in the same night he felt the same, this strange connection. I didnt give much attention to this feeling because he was just a friend. We went out again after two weeks with the same friends and the connection felt even stronger, it was like we were linked to eachother. We flirted alot, we discovered we had so much in common, so many things we liked. He was like a male version of me. We continued to go out more often and we realised we were spending so much time together without even noticing. We werent seeing eachother ofter, once a week os two weeks, but when we were together its like time didnt exist. One night we were out and all our friends left, remained just the two of us. We were friends till that moment, he had a sad face. He told me he felt everything, that everything is so special that scares him and that is just so unfair because he has a girlfriend. I didnt know, that crashed me. We stayed two hours in complete silence, knew that one of us had to leave, but we couldnt. We decided to stay friends, because Im not the type of girl that breaks relationships off and hes not the type that cheats. But after these two hours something happened again and we couldnt resist, we kissed. And from that moment I knew we were meant to be. I felt so guilty and he too, we avoided to see each other for a week and then met again. We stayed together for 15 hours, and it felt like 30 minutes. How normal is this? We just couldnt separate and we didnt know why. Its like none of us had control over themselves. We still met a couple of times, before I just broke off our affair because I was feeling too guilty to continue and knew he felt it too. After 3 weeks, I saw him again yesterday, we just met at an event and I can tell hes not over me. At all. And is just so unfair. I was cold, because if Im the one that has a little control over things. I know I should move on, but with how many people can somebody feel what Ive felt with him?