Sososad Posted December 1, 2013 Posted December 1, 2013 Morning guys..I'm now 2 months fully broken up . 1st month a couple of texts maybe 3/4 exchanged nothing changing Quick chat.. Told me she's happy and life is great etc.. I accepted that had a good cry and pushed on! So I'm starting to do well not happy yet but defo not so sad .. I'm not faking it on feeling happier and on the right road. 2 weeks later I get a text from My ex on her new number (didn't have it) Hey how are u type with some pointless silly question! I deleted it straight away and ignored. I'm not gonna lie this felt really empowering and I got a boost.. About 3/4 days later this text is on my mind so much my thoughts are back To thinking of her .. All I can describe is a closing wound ripped wide open AGAIN!! I've been struggling now and things are moving slowly again for me .. I don't know if it's the fact it's now 2 months solid over an the realisation it's really over or the text that threw me. I've been reading that around the 2/3 month mark can be tough anyone else have these relapses .. I so wanted to text her last week .. I really did and I just thought what do I say ?! I don't have anything to say I've nothing I really wanna share and I know for sure I don't wanna hear how great her life is without me.so why the urge ? At least I know it's pure self sabotage and can't see me do it! (Please god) I really thought id be further along by now ... A simple text (pointless and meaning nothing ) can throw such a curve ball... Tell me I'm not going crazy here and others have these set backs too?! And here's a question I gotta ask .. Do exs actually have any idea a "simple text" can throw someone or is that the whole point!!! I did do right to ignore didn't i? I'm just rambling now.. Needed to pour the brain and heart out a bit this morning..thanks anyone who's tAken the time to read this..
derfsangel Posted December 1, 2013 Posted December 1, 2013 Hi there, Read your response and going through the same thing. It's been 3 months NC for me and I don't intend to contact. I, too, was doing well until he emailed me 3 weeks ago. He also showed up at my mom's door crying... a grown, 50 yr old man. It did reopen old wounds. I was angry that he had the balls to do this. I did type out several responses filled with negativity but never sent them. i'm taking the high road on this but it still bugs me, 3 weeks later!! It's like a took a step forward then 2 steps back. So, to answer your question, I think it's normal!! Hang in there!!
Author Sososad Posted December 1, 2013 Author Posted December 1, 2013 Do you think we just push those feelings aside and it's almost Outta sight outta mind.. And all it takes is a few printed words to open them back up? I was honestly doing better .. But thinking could replying have made things any much worse !? I don't know what I want anymore .. Heads a mess yet again!! Thanks for your reply..glad I'm not alone !
Zoe Lilith Posted December 1, 2013 Posted December 1, 2013 I am going thru the same thing like you at moment, no, you're not alone. I feel hurt, as well as confused. I'm already tired of this rollecoaster.
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