Cinnimon Posted November 28, 2013 Posted November 28, 2013 I'm having a really hard time today. I'm in a room full of family and friends, trying my best to not think, not tear up, not let my feelings get the best of me. I feel like everyone can see it and feel it but I continue to fake it for all of them and myself as well......hard day, just needed to say it 1
LaceyFace Posted November 28, 2013 Posted November 28, 2013 Yikes....I'm in the same boat today. Took everything in me not to tear up and walk out of the room. Being with someone you love and feeling lonely 90% of the time sucks. 1
mikecr50 Posted November 28, 2013 Posted November 28, 2013 Try to focus on where you are now with people that want to spend time with you and care about you without agenda :-) 6
whichwayisup Posted November 28, 2013 Posted November 28, 2013 I'm having a really hard time today. I'm in a room full of family and friends, trying my best to not think, not tear up, not let my feelings get the best of me. I feel like everyone can see it and feel it but I continue to fake it for all of them and myself as well......hard day, just needed to say it Happy Thanksgiving. As hard as today may be, be glad you have friends and family to spend a wonderful cooked meal with. You have your health, a warm house, family and friends. That has to put a smile to your face. Don't cry about this anymore, especially today! Really REALLY push yourself to enjoy yourself. 1
happy stillmore Posted November 28, 2013 Posted November 28, 2013 I can relate too, Cinnimon. It is so hard to shake the loneliness when you know you shouldn't feel this way while surrounded by loved ones. I am constantly thinking of what xMM is doing right now. Is he acting like everything if fine and happy while eating the turkey dinner with the family? Last year, he said would be the last Thanksgiving we would be apart and now it is the opposite. We do, however, have a lot to be thankful for. I have a friend who got sick with the necrotizing fasciitis bacteria after a surgery. She had a below the knee amputation and half of her other foot, several fingers on both hands amputated. Anyway, just recently had to have more of her leg removed. She used to earn >$100K/year but now is collecting social security. It made me think my life is not that crappy. 1
BrokenPrincess Posted November 29, 2013 Posted November 29, 2013 Hope you're feeling better today Cinnimon. I felt exactly like you last year...it was a few weeks past DDay & my entire world had blown up, my heart was shattered, except no one around me even knew. I swallowed tears all day and just tried to act normal. Now a year later (and 6months after our second breakup), I felt tremendously better...not back to normal because I still thought of xMM but leaps & bounds ahead of last year. Sending you big hugs, just keep the faith that time will help you heal and keep surrounding yourself with your loving friends & family 1
Author Cinnimon Posted November 30, 2013 Author Posted November 30, 2013 Just wanted to thank everyone who responded to my post. I appreciate the show of support.....Hugs to all of you.
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