jessiej Posted November 26, 2013 Posted November 26, 2013 I was in a very abusive relationship for 3 years. It started when I was 15, and am just about to turn 18. I dealt with stuff noone should have to. The man I was with completely manipulated me, and isolated me from everyone. I lost every single one of my friends. He emotionally abused me and controlled me everyday. Once I lost all of my friends and had no one at all to turn to, he started to physically abuse me. I stayed always hoping he would change. He thought it was okay to scream at me, and when I cried he'd freak out on me and scream at me more and call me names, then things would escalate and get physical where he would push me around, choke me, and threaten to hit me... I stuck around because I had no one. No one to talk to and no one to be there for me if I ever got strong enough to leave him. About a month ago, he started cheating on me then dumped me. He said a lot of very mean things. I tried to call him to talk and he would just scream at me saying I was crazy and a bitch and he was going to call the cops on me, he said he hated me and being in a relationship with me for so long was stupid. I've been left with no friends and no one there for me, and I have no self confidence or respect for myself after going through everything. I'm struggling so much with being okay. I don't understand how someone could say they loved me, then treat me like this. And I don't understand how you can give someone your everything and they can treat you so poorly for no reason. How do I move on from this? I've tried keeping my mind off everything, working out, reading, getting sleep and eating right, but I still find myself crying at the end of each day praying I can go to sleep and never wake up
Trapp-er Posted November 26, 2013 Posted November 26, 2013 It sounds like you are doing everything you can to heal. you are doing great!. Have you thought about seeing a therapist/counselor? It might help you gain perspective, feel some validation in the fact that you are better off without your ex than you were with him. And they will be able to help you avoid repeating this with others in the future. Keep your chin up. I promise it will get better!!!
Author jessiej Posted November 28, 2013 Author Posted November 28, 2013 i've considered it.. but i'm not sure how I would do with therapy. Thanks for your kind words and taking the time to reply
Walking Wounded Posted November 28, 2013 Posted November 28, 2013 I'm not making light of this when I say, you should feel like you just WON THE LOTTERY and another chance to be loved and respected and cherished for the person you are. You've escaped!!! Keep reminding yourself of the fact that if he hadn't chosen another victim, your abuse might have gone on forever. Hospitals are full of women who are afraid to run. In your case he left your cell door open. NEVER give him another chance. Good luck and be happy. It will take time but it's out there for you.
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