coursingthru Posted December 29, 2004 Posted December 29, 2004 [color=darkred][/color] I was here back in February........I think? Ah, yes. It was a crazy split with a man in Dec 03' I felt was my soulmate but just knew it wasn't "our time" and basically self sabotaged the relationship to send him away. I ended up with another man just a few short months later and at first my ex sm showed up 3 months later wanting "his girls" back - (me & my 13 yr old), I told him no. I was still devastated by how he left us despite my doing and his too, but I know see things and tend to take the brunt. That reason I have no idea - maybe I wasn't ready either and too guilty to admit after the 3 years. ANYWAY - I split with the now new ex bf in Sept 04, he and I have been talking and hooking up but it feels good at the time, but nothing compared to my ex sm. Here is my question.........I can't stop thinking about my x sm. I email him periodically with quick lines - like have a nice holiday or a question relating to nothing. He emails me back with brief replies. I miss him a lot. I want to see him. Even if just to talk to him face to face. He and I never had closure or discussed anything to an extent of understanding. With my new ex bf, we have and it has given me closure and know that I don't want him in my life at least, only as a friend. I love my ex sm so much still and my heart is killing me. I remember all of the good times and the bad, but the good soo out weigh the negative. What would you do? Take a chance to see if he wants to meet for coffee? I know back in August he emailed me and said he met someone that he knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life with only after 2 days of knowing her. I knew in my heart it wasn't true - at least that is what I convinced myself of. I know it took us 3 years and we still didn't know eachother. Nothing ever happens that fast. ADVICE?
Pocky Posted December 29, 2004 Posted December 29, 2004 Ask him if he wants to meet for coffee. If you can't be honest with your feelings and open yourself to whatever happens by taking a chance, then how can you expect him to? Ask him and then you will know your answer and you will either have your closure or a new possibility.
Author coursingthru Posted December 29, 2004 Author Posted December 29, 2004 I will e-mail him this morning. He usually replies by the end of day with me. I feel maybe doing this will give me closure with him as well if his answer is no. I am not the crazy ex gf that tries to keep everyone locked in, it is just within my heart - it is nudging me and I always go with my heart - even if to be rejected. I haven't seen him since last May briefly in a store but he didn't see me, it was the first time a man ever made me stop in my tracks and feel paralyzed. Thanks for the push....
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