slunkyslunky Posted November 23, 2013 Posted November 23, 2013 Hey all. First time poster here. If you could help me, it'd be very much appreciated. (this is really long to explain so apologies in advance) About four years ago, I met the most wonderful girl I had ever met in my life. I'll refer to her as 'A'. She was my first love. We started off a friends with mutual interests but i slowly began to fall in love with her, and she did with me (or so i thought). She had a very troubled past, as well as numerous mental illnesses, but this didn't affect my feelings for her whatsoever. She messed me around with 6-8 different guys (some of them i was close to), and we grew apart. I got with a girl (i'll refer to her as B), who was nice, but she didn't fill A's shoes whatsoever. We went out for roughly a year and a half. In the early days of the relationship, i had no thoughts of A, but over time, they started to come back. Long story short, B ended up in a psychiatric hospital, and i had to break up with her. Around, april/may this year, I actually ended up being with A, and it was truly amazing whilst it lasted. But, she got pregnant. From the moment we found out, she became more and more distant, unloving and cold towards me, it was like she simply didn't care anymore. she wouldn't speak to me, didn't want to cuddle, or touch me whatsoever, we never kissed, nothing. We mutually broke up (even though i didn't want to), but i pointed out to her that i still wanted to be involved with her and the child, just for emotional and finantial support if they needed it. She agreed. I took the break-up horribly, i was a mess. Around a week later, I texted her, wanting to try and sort out what went wrong, and she replied saying she was "with someone else now" that "she doesn't and never needed me" told me to "grow up", and that she's the happiest shes ever been, and also that she doesn't ever want to see my face again, and doesn't and wont let me be involved with the child. I have truly and honestly tried my very hardest, for around three years now, to forget about her, and sometimes I do. But never for long. She's ALWAYS on the back of my mind, and sometimes I get so depressed about it. She's always been my one and only, and I just want everything to be okay but it won't be. How can I move on? Because I've almost resigned myself to accepting that I never will move on, regardless of what happens
ariesgirl-328 Posted November 23, 2013 Posted November 23, 2013 Hey (: I know what you are going through. I promise I've been through this. The only cure is to love yourself more and more, and everyday be proud of how you are moving forward and living and thriving even if she isn't present. You don't know it yet because you probably stopped searching, but there is a girl out there that will change everything you're thinking when you realize she's the best. You just have to be patient and find her. It's all your choice to let go. Everytime you think of her or a memory of some time you shared, smile to yourself and say it's okay and move on with whatever you were doing. Eventually you will see that it is okay in reality and life goes on with or without her (: your only job is to be happy because she is too.
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