staying away

[beachbound]

I'm writing here to get out some of my anger.

I haven't spoken to my ex since I told him to get the f*ck away from me after I escaped my own home following a violent attack. I called the police & he was arrested. I went the following day with 2 black eyes to file the injunction. I moved while he was in jail. I am so grateful I could uproot myself. He was charged with attempted homicide, battery by strangulation, & false imprisonment, I plan to work with the DA. I am absolutely pressing charges. I know he will curse my name till his dying day. I dont ever expect him to take any responsibility for his actions. Without him saying it I know he blames me. The best i could expect would be an "im sorry but you..." Which is obviously total bs. Plenty of people get drunk & do coke & never beat anyone up, including myself -let alone a lover.. so I reject that "excuse" .He could have killed me- I thought I was going to die. He is 6"3 230 stock diesel, im 5"5 145. He was always out to teach me a lesson. I dont have any illusions, that he'll learn **** from this-but he will find out that he is not going to treat me any kind of way & he will see that there are consequences. He has a prior DV conviction & another injunction filed by a woman who lives several blocks from my old house. He was bad news from the start & I ignored my gut which said be afraid & I fell for phony charm - I gave away my power. I dont "blame" myself. But i can see how my insecurities made me vulnerable to this experienced predator. Im glad I have no phone number & haven't resorted to a lame email... why. For at least a week before he'd been served with the final injunction he could have called to offer some half assed apology- he's such an egomaniac dick he didnt even bother. Ugh. This is so awful. I cant wait for this turmoil lift. This rant helped...

[thompkevin]

Glad it helped. You did great. Things will only get better from here.

[beachbound]

Thanks. I appreciate the support.