python23 Posted November 19, 2013 Posted November 19, 2013 (edited) Even though I know I deserve better I can't help but think about my ex girl friend every minute of the day. We broke up for the 2nd time in August. The first time she dumped me but we got back together as she said she had taken me for granted and she was so upset about leaving me. Anyway. Things had been great for months but she couldn't help but drop me constantly for other plans. She would get a better offer somewhere else like a night out with the girls then lie to me saying she couldn't afford the meal we had arranged or what ever it was. She used to tell me she loved me so much but still did it. Other things like never uploading any pictures of me on Facebook even though I'd made the effort of going to a wedding with her. It was as if she was always trying to petray being single. She was go mad calling me pathetic when I mentioned this. Anyway. Cut a long story short I ended it after about the 6th time of being dropped. I didn't deserve that and if she really cared she would want to spend time with me. What makes this worse is I work with her and have to see her several times a day. She straight away acted like she didn't give a f*ck about the break up. Which obviously drove me mad because I loved this girl but felt I had to because I was being made a fool of. A week of no contact and I broke it. Trying to get her back. Looking back now I regret that so much. Anyway she told me she didn't want to try again and it was done. Which tells me i was never really anything to her. I'm friends with her brother and uncle who I also work with and we are always going out on nights out together. This is good but the problem is my ex always joins us. When ever I'm out she never leaves me alone. Kisses me on the cheek if girls are talking to me. I have slept with her 3 times since we split. It's great at the time but I always feel awful after. The last time was 2 weeks ago. We spent the weekend together. She asked if we could go for a meal so we did. She even asked if I fancied calling round at her aunties house for a brew. I turned that down though. That was too much to take in. We were Kissing and cuddling all weekend. It was great. She would always tell me things I'd want to hear like my aunties are always asking about you. They really liked you and are always asking if we're getting back together. This drives me mad because all I want is for this girl to be the girl I want her to be. Which won't happen. But at the end of the night I questioned her. Asked why we were doing this and said it wasn't right and she agreed. I got upset and Said I can't accept being your part time bf when it suites. She told me she didn't want commitment or a boyfriend but loved spending time with me. I said it had to stop and she left. I've not spoken to her since out of work and we only say hello at work. She blanks me, gives me cold looks but is as happy as ever laughing and joking with everyone else while I'm dying inside. I try and have a laugh with other people but it's so difficult. How can someone be so easy come easy go? I just don't get it. How can anyone have a weekend playing happy families then Simply say ok when I call it off? When ever I say hello I get the sweetest hello off her. Which melts me every time. I had one text asking about downloading music 2 days after which I ignored. I've not had a text since but the weak part inside me is dying to text her. For what reason I don't know. I know it won't help but I love and miss this girl so much. I feel so down. My friends are bored of the same girl messing with. MY head. I know I'm better off without her but it's been two weeks no contact now and it's getting harder. Deep down I know I'm just a game to her. She likes to keep me hanging because she knows I care but this is stopping me from meeting other girls. I'm 24 I want to be happy with someone who wants me all the time not just a weekend once a month. This isn't really a thread asking for advice I just needed to let it out. Any wise words would be grateful. And would you believe. The first text in 2 weeks comes as I finish writing this. She's just asked if I'm ok. I will ignore Edited November 19, 2013 by python23
Brown-Eyez Posted November 19, 2013 Posted November 19, 2013 You broke away from someone who did not see your value!! Awesome you for thinking better of yourself then to take that kind of sh*t! Now the really really really HARD PART starts: NO CONTACT if you make no contact your new life project and put the effort into avoiding her you will truly be free! AND will learn how to turn away sooner from someone who just can't be into you.. hang in there! 1
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