about a situation about an ex from 3 years ago, !

[Happiness123]

Please could I have serious answers to this, please don't judge me, I can't help how I feel. Basically I went out with this guy 3 years ago, which I regard a long time ago but I still don't think I'm over him, it's so hard to put into words! We went out for only like 3-4 months but the relationship meant a lot to me. I was young and although I did not lose my virginity to him he was the first person I felt an emotional connection with and the first person I did it with more than once. He was also the first for other things, which I consider more intimate. He met my mum, I met him etc, he took me out for a really nice meal on valentines day and stuff. We broke up because he couldn't take it anymore, I think as a I was younger and it was my first proper relationship I used to complain a lot which I now regret. The problem/confusion is that I've been with my current boyfriend for over 2 years, and I love him to bits, we are so serious about each other. It makes me feel so guilty when I have these feelings of regret and missing my ex. My ex has also been with him girlfriend for just over 2 years (they got together not long after me and my boyfriend). For a year after our relationship we went to the same college and dispite not ending well, we both got on relatively well. He used to look at me and stuff and sometimes I would feel like he was hiding it from his girlfriend that he still spoke to me. Then he went to uni, and despite what I thought, the feeling did not die. I still felt the need to check up on him on Facebook/twitter and he even followed me at one point (but later unfollowed). This summer he followed me on instagram but after I liked a picture when he was on holiday with his gf he blocked and deleted me. I know this social networking site stuff may seem irrelevant but I just want to make the situation clear. I bumped into him in his work and we spoke. This year I've gone to university, at first i thought I was forgetting about him but then I still felt the need to check up on him online, despite him also having had deleted me from Facebook now. I also occasionally dream about him, once even about marriage. I was so so happy in my dream and when I woke up I kindaf wished it was true. Whenever I dream about him i wake up thinking about him all day. Sorry about the essay, I just don't know what to do, I'm confused on why I think this STILL despite being very happy with my boyfriend etc. Any help would be appreciated or even if you have a similar story.

[Philosoraptor]

Sounds like you have an unhealthy obsession with this guy. And you really should reconsider your current relationship as it's not fair to your current man that you are so head over heels with another guy from 3 years ago.

[smuggy95]

Considering how you guys don't really talk, and how much people can change, you might just be living in a fantasy especially just remembering the good parts about his Old Self.