Monday Mornings Are the Worst

[30andsad]

For whatever reason, I've found Monday mornings to be the worst day for me during this roller coaster. I tend to feel the most hopeless and sad by a long shot at this time. Are there any particular days that are worse than others for you guys?

 

I'm going on 7 weeks since she left for a break and 5 weeks since she broke it off. She moved out last Saturday, but came to get a few left over odds and ends yesterday.

 

She told me she missed me again yesterday, but she's so set on her decision. Apparently, she's living in some small duplex in a bad part of town. She told me yesterday about some homeless drunk rapping on her window one of the first days there. I worry for her still, even though I know it's no longer my business to worry for her. She has always been very la-de-da about things in regards to safety, and I am very concerned she may get hurt where she is, broken into, etc.

 

Last week I did much better than expected though since she moved out on Saturday. Of course, Monday morning I was completely hopeless and on the verge of a panic attack, but after that, things settled down and I was generally not too bad. I think the companionship of my dog has helped tremendously. Unfortunately, the dog is in a shared situation, so I've got her for another 3 weeks before having to relinquish for a month. Hopefully, she will give in and let me have the pup eventually -- I have the dog's home, 1 acre yard, good area/neighborhood in suburbia, two cats to keep company during the work day and a more steady schedule than she does. We'll see -- anyway, we're back to Monday morning, so as usual, feeling more down than usual. I'm sure seeing her yesterday didn't help either...

[bobby326]

I'm right there with you man, Monday mornings are the absolute worst. Sometimes I feel like my self esteem resets every week. I'm 3 months post BU, almost 2 months NC. Been on a few dates, some from online dating, I think dating is a bad idea for me right now, I'm just goin to stop trying to get dates and let things happen naturally. I think Mondays are the worst because during the week most of my friends are busy and most of them are married or have serious gfs. I look forward to the weekend as I can go out and get crazy, I need to chill on spending money though, since the breakup I've been spending a crazy amount of money on going out. I guess my justification is it's good for me to get out and now I'm not saving for an engagement ring/wedding/house so why not.

 

Hang in there man, I know exactly what your going through, I lived with my ex as well and we were together for 4 1/2 years. I know that this ****ty feeling on Monday will pass as I go through it almost every week.

[sambo77]

Yeah...I hear ya. All mornings feel pretty rubbish but Mondays are definitely the worst by far. There is some sort of awareness that you have the whole damn week to carry that damn burden of pain and heartache around...again.

 

I wake up every morning and for a split second everything is...well...normal again. Then, like someone dropping a breeze block, there's a dull, significant thud...like my heart remembers it's meant to be down on the floor...and so down it drops.

 

Let's compare notes in 10 more Mondays...surely we'll be doing better then?!

[Yayo]

I agree with everyone. Mondays SUCK. I woke up this morning and was just an emotional hot mess, like right when I woke up. how pathetic

[Peanut9330]

When I was getting over my break up Sunday and Monday were my worst days. Sunday everyone kind of laid low which made me feel sooooooo alone I dreaded that feeling. Monday was rough for me because it was the beginning of the work week and also my ex broke up with me Monday morning while I was at work over the phone.

 

Hang in there buddy!!! Take it one step at a time and this too shall pass!!!