hidemyid Posted November 14, 2013 Posted November 14, 2013 So moments ago, I finally did it. Ive made numerous posts (and excuses), as to why I hold on. Now that I reflect, I know it was because I was comfortable, having someone there for me all the time.... I gotta say, the adjustment, is really really hard, and its only been an hour. I feel really, really bad.. not relieved like I thought I was gonna feel. I went to go delete pictures, and... I couldn't bare to look at them. I feel like, I literally, crushed somebodys soul who would have went to hell and back for me, who made numerous sacrifices for me. I just... I wasn't happy, and its hard to explain why. Parts of her personality were really unattractive, but physically she was really pretty, and a freak in bed. In other posts, I just... couldn't stand the controlling aspects, the whole wanting to control everything, her assuming privacy meant I had something to hide type of personality. Her parents, and there controlling nature, and the things that disgusted me about her parents, I saw come out of her all of the time. The apple dosent fall far from the tree. I just wanted to THANK EVERYBODY, on this amazing forum. The ability to vent, and formulate you thoughts via typing, really gave me an opportunity to think about my posts, and reflect on my deep inner emotions. Im not saying, Im happy now. Im actually, really depressed, and lost... I know now, I can heal. I just wanted to know, what do YOU guys do, to help the recovery process. Delete everything, every memory? Cut communication, do you go out and do the things you held back from doing before hand? What do you think.
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