Lolipoppy Posted November 14, 2013 Posted November 14, 2013 i have no friends in school and he's really popular and good-looking. he's tall, has a six pack, amazing smile with dimples on both sides, funny, awesome, friendly. he's a year younger than me but he doesn't mind. he likes me cos he thinks I'm cute and funny. I don't try to be funny or crack jokes, I'm naturally ''funny'' in a weird way cos of the way I am. I've been in this school for 3 years and have made no friends at all cos of my personality. I was bullied during the first and second year of school by a guy who used to be in the same class as me. however I got crap results so I had to retain a grade, that's why I ended up in the same class as my crush. I like this class way better than my previous. the people are really nice to me especially the boys. nobody in my previous class bullied me except for that one guy but they were not as warm, friendly and fun as my current classmates. I still do not have any friends though, cos of my shy and antisocial personality. I wish I could get out and make friends and have a social life. I'm 15 and my parents are wondering why I've never had a boyfriend before. ive had crushes before but they were always one-sided. then there were other guys have had crushes on me before but they never liked me enough to get to know me better cos of my personality. they only liked me cos they find me attractive. this time my crush actually liked me for who I am, and he also liked me first, then made me fall in love with him...he thinks I'm perfect in every way and that I'm unique and special. its the school holidays now in my country and I haven't seen him since 23rd October (school holidays in my country are from October to January). but from his tweets he still seems to like me. I didn't give him my twitter when he asked, I pretended that I don't have it. I did that cos I only have online friends on twitter and he doesn't know that I'm also friendless outside school. I don't want him to think that I'm a loser...also I've applied for a school transfer but I Haven't heard of any news from that school yet. I Haven't told him about it though cos I don't have any way to contact him. I might not even be in the same school as him by the time school starts. even if my application for a transfer does not get accepted, me and him will be in different classes next year. I would rather get a transfer and never see him ever again cos its better than seeing him move on and get a girlfriend. what should I do now? I feel so pathetic. 1
Toddbt12y1 Posted November 14, 2013 Posted November 14, 2013 First: I am sorry this jerkoff kid bullied you. I think that if you are not moving too far away, to another school, it might be possible to keep him as a bf. You are only 15, so no hurry. Do not worry what he will think of you. You'll see his true colors by how he reacts to your social media and real life friends. At your age social media is a big deal, eh? But it isn't to older people, who have learned to not care about this stuff, for obvious reasons. You should try to talk to people, overcome your shyness. This boy may see something in you, others do not. If the distance in moving is too much, do not worry about it. You're still very young.
sumchiq Posted December 4, 2013 Posted December 4, 2013 (edited) i am so happy and shocked that i found someone in the SAME EXACT SITUATION as me!! no one understands!! you probably might not care but i just have to tell someone!! i have a crush on this guy and he wants me SOOO BADD but i keep avoiding him because i dont think im good enough for him. its killing me inside because he has no idea that i want him soo bad too. ill list the details we have in common: - i have no friends (i do but no one close enough to talk to outside of school and im always alone) - hes really popular, good-looking, funny, awesome and friendly - hes a year younger than me but he doesnt mind (hes 16, im 17) - he likes me cuz he thinks im cute and nice - im shy and antisocial (not always cuz i put myself out there sometimes and blossom in front of the people im comfortable with) - i wish i could get out and make friends and have a social life too but i dont have time for that because i have a job and im in the rigorous IB program. but i also dont care that much because im about to go to college sooo - guys like me cuz they find me attractive but idk if they know my personality because i come off as cold and distant because im shy but im actually really sweet - my crush liked me first too and now im obsessed with him - he tweets about me all the time saying how bad he wants me and how hard im making it for him (i dont have a twitter or any social network lol im a stalker) - i dont want him to think im a loser either!! i dont think im good enough for him because im a loser. im not in the popular crowd and im kind of a nerd (not in a dorky way but im kind of known as the "smart girl"). i also dont have a phone and thats really embarrassing to me because literally everyone has a phone and i feel like i would have to have a phone to be with him because i know he would expect to text and call me all the time and send selfies to each other and facetime lol. yeah thats what these teens over here do. im terrified that hes going to ask for my number. im getting a phone soon because i definitely need one before i go off to college (im a senior) but its going to take me about 2 months to save up for it. i also dont talk to the people he talks to. im kind of terrified that i would have to be accompanied with his popular friends. theyre always staring at me because he talks about me all the time to them. in the beginning of the year, he was talking about me to his best friend and his best friend looked at me and said: "damn, shes beautiful." im scared of what people would say if i went out with him. im probably not seen as a loser, but who knows. those arent the only reasons because im extremely busy. i have a job, community service, im in the IB program and i have to prepare for college by signing up for scholarships, studying for the SAT and applying to colleges along with several other things i have to do. all of these deadlines are just passing by. i want him so bad, but its really bad timing because im sooo busy. if we were in a relationship, i would never really have time to hang out with him. i dont know how to tell him and i kind of dont want to because i dont want him to think im giving too many excuses and by giving those excuses, i dont want him to think i dont want him. BECAUSE I DO. REALLY. BAD. hes so sweet and he looks so delicious. he would also think that we could make it work but he doesnt understand. we could probably make it work later in the year when things arent as hectic for me, but the social boundaries are still really intimidating. i feel pathetic too, but its good to know im not alone. i think you should talk to him especially since you have a twitter and if you have a phone. thats an up from me. i know youre shy, but one day you have to get out of your shell because being shy all the time isnt going to get you anywhere. see this opportunity and potentially great guy youre missing out on? doing things you usually dont do is the only way youre going to develop and gain confidence. dont care about or obsess over what hes going to think of you or what people think. in reality, people arent obsessing over or thinking about what embarrassing thing you did or how youre going to mess up next. people are thinking about their own problems and being as neurotic as you. so talk to this guy because you might regret it later. and i dont think you should transfer because you said your class is nice, so i dont think you should risk readjusting to a new school. i also think you have a chance with him if you just let him in. i know its scary, but just force yourself to do it. gradually. i force myself to do mundane things i deem as "scary" all the time and its making me a more confident person. i know i sound like a total hypocrite right now, but what i just told you is what i tell myself all the time. i might talk to my crush as a friend but i might not let him in any further because i have more important things to focus on right now as i explained earlier. its sad, but i know ill find someone in college. sorry for the long post, but regardless if you care or not, i had to let that out. btw, is there a way we can contact each other? like switch emails? because i think we should talk to each other about this. and help each other out. please reply!! Edited December 4, 2013 by sumchiq
Author Lolipoppy Posted December 7, 2013 Author Posted December 7, 2013 (edited) i am so happy and shocked that i found someone in the SAME EXACT SITUATION as me!! no one understands!! you probably might not care but i just have to tell someone!! i have a crush on this guy and he wants me SOOO BADD but i keep avoiding him because i dont think im good enough for him. its killing me inside because he has no idea that i want him soo bad too. ill list the details we have in common: - i have no friends (i do but no one close enough to talk to outside of school and im always alone) - hes really popular, good-looking, funny, awesome and friendly - hes a year younger than me but he doesnt mind (hes 16, im 17) - he likes me cuz he thinks im cute and nice - im shy and antisocial (not always cuz i put myself out there sometimes and blossom in front of the people im comfortable with) - i wish i could get out and make friends and have a social life too but i dont have time for that because i have a job and im in the rigorous IB program. but i also dont care that much because im about to go to college sooo - guys like me cuz they find me attractive but idk if they know my personality because i come off as cold and distant because im shy but im actually really sweet - my crush liked me first too and now im obsessed with him - he tweets about me all the time saying how bad he wants me and how hard im making it for him (i dont have a twitter or any social network lol im a stalker) - i dont want him to think im a loser either!! i dont think im good enough for him because im a loser. im not in the popular crowd and im kind of a nerd (not in a dorky way but im kind of known as the "smart girl"). i also dont have a phone and thats really embarrassing to me because literally everyone has a phone and i feel like i would have to have a phone to be with him because i know he would expect to text and call me all the time and send selfies to each other and facetime lol. yeah thats what these teens over here do. im terrified that hes going to ask for my number. im getting a phone soon because i definitely need one before i go off to college (im a senior) but its going to take me about 2 months to save up for it. i also dont talk to the people he talks to. im kind of terrified that i would have to be accompanied with his popular friends. theyre always staring at me because he talks about me all the time to them. in the beginning of the year, he was talking about me to his best friend and his best friend looked at me and said: "damn, shes beautiful." im scared of what people would say if i went out with him. im probably not seen as a loser, but who knows. those arent the only reasons because im extremely busy. i have a job, community service, im in the IB program and i have to prepare for college by signing up for scholarships, studying for the SAT and applying to colleges along with several other things i have to do. all of these deadlines are just passing by. i want him so bad, but its really bad timing because im sooo busy. if we were in a relationship, i would never really have time to hang out with him. i dont know how to tell him and i kind of dont want to because i dont want him to think im giving too many excuses and by giving those excuses, i dont want him to think i dont want him. BECAUSE I DO. REALLY. BAD. hes so sweet and he looks so delicious. he would also think that we could make it work but he doesnt understand. we could probably make it work later in the year when things arent as hectic for me, but the social boundaries are still really intimidating. i feel pathetic too, but its good to know im not alone. i think you should talk to him especially since you have a twitter and if you have a phone. thats an up from me. i know youre shy, but one day you have to get out of your shell because being shy all the time isnt going to get you anywhere. see this opportunity and potentially great guy youre missing out on? doing things you usually dont do is the only way youre going to develop and gain confidence. dont care about or obsess over what hes going to think of you or what people think. in reality, people arent obsessing over or thinking about what embarrassing thing you did or how youre going to mess up next. people are thinking about their own problems and being as neurotic as you. so talk to this guy because you might regret it later. and i dont think you should transfer because you said your class is nice, so i dont think you should risk readjusting to a new school. i also think you have a chance with him if you just let him in. i know its scary, but just force yourself to do it. gradually. i force myself to do mundane things i deem as "scary" all the time and its making me a more confident person. i know i sound like a total hypocrite right now, but what i just told you is what i tell myself all the time. i might talk to my crush as a friend but i might not let him in any further because i have more important things to focus on right now as i explained earlier. its sad, but i know ill find someone in college. sorry for the long post, but regardless if you care or not, i had to let that out. btw, is there a way we can contact each other? like switch emails? because i think we should talk to each other about this. and help each other out. please reply!! OMG! wow is ur story rly real? oive never met anyone like me in my entire life!! hhaa sorry i just dont know how to react to this. its the holidays now in my country (since 24 october) and school will be starting on 2 january next year. the list of my new classmates for 2014 came out on the sch website at november smth and i found out that my crush will be in a different class from me by the time sch starts....we won't have any classes together anymore too. reading the class list for 2014 on that day made me super sad. my face and body was heating up but at the same time i also felt cold. it was like having a fever, except that the pain of those 'symptoms' were doubled. i thought it was just a coincidence cos i didnt cry when i saw that list. so i went to the doctor. and the next day, all the symptoms were gone. i figured that it was bcos of my crush (( 17 out of 40 of my current classmates will be in the same class as me nxt year. but it wont be the same anymore without my crush. i just want to leave this school...also in my school the juniors and seniors (in my country, we start high sch at age 13, i will be a junior next year) have lunch together at the same timing which means that i'll have to face the guy who used to bully me. im not sure if i want to exchange emails. im rly awkward and i always have nothing to talk about ( which makes it hard for me to make friends. SO SORRY i took so long to respond. i kinda 4got bout this thread cos there werent any replies fr so long, until i found it in my bookmarks bar. Edited December 7, 2013 by Lolipoppy
sumchiq Posted December 16, 2013 Posted December 16, 2013 OMG! wow is ur story rly real? oive never met anyone like me in my entire life!! hhaa sorry i just dont know how to react to this. its the holidays now in my country (since 24 october) and school will be starting on 2 january next year. the list of my new classmates for 2014 came out on the sch website at november smth and i found out that my crush will be in a different class from me by the time sch starts....we won't have any classes together anymore too. reading the class list for 2014 on that day made me super sad. my face and body was heating up but at the same time i also felt cold. it was like having a fever, except that the pain of those 'symptoms' were doubled. i thought it was just a coincidence cos i didnt cry when i saw that list. so i went to the doctor. and the next day, all the symptoms were gone. i figured that it was bcos of my crush (( 17 out of 40 of my current classmates will be in the same class as me nxt year. but it wont be the same anymore without my crush. i just want to leave this school...also in my school the juniors and seniors (in my country, we start high sch at age 13, i will be a junior next year) have lunch together at the same timing which means that i'll have to face the guy who used to bully me. im not sure if i want to exchange emails. im rly awkward and i always have nothing to talk about ( which makes it hard for me to make friends. SO SORRY i took so long to respond. i kinda 4got bout this thread cos there werent any replies fr so long, until i found it in my bookmarks bar. haha yes, its real. its a huge coincidence, i know. well now that you say that, i think its better that you switch schools. staying at your current school will make you think about your crush all the time and it would be horrible to face your former bully. so switch schools to move on in your life. im sad cuz i just found out that my crush said he gives up on trying for girls. i know its my fault, but what can i do. :( ill try to acknowledge him more and at least be friends with him. another scary coincidence about our situation is that im not going to take any classes with him next year either! hes going to forget about me. and go to prom with someone else. (hes a junior but i heard hes going to our prom) well, ill try to focus solely on my studies now that thats over with. :/ its ok if you dont want to exchange emails, that was too personal of me to ask anyways.
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