1 month of NC today, all sorts of emotions taking over me.

[crazybestie101]

Today make my 1 month of NC. I haven't checked my email , FB or any texting apps. So i don't even know if he reached out to me. I am not planning on checking it until 3 months. But from last few days , i have been feeling that that day is not far when i will start hating my ex completely for the way he treated me after BU and specially when i reached out to him for last time. I honestly don't want to start this hate war but it just comes out naturally. At times , i miss him but then i try to remind myself of how he bailed me out last time. My mind really wish he go through same hell in which he put me in. As i said earlier , i really don't want to hate him but it just doesn't go away. i somehow end up in places where we shared lots of memories. Even by looking at pictures of those places ,killed me and i broke into tears. Here and there his name comes up , every clue that reminds me of him. I am so tired of all this , when this will go away.

 

Also ,Do you think hating helps forget person?

[aaron11892]

Anger is a natural part of the healing process. We all go through it. It's normal to be angry at someone who was supposed to be a big part of your life and suddenly the next day they are gone.

 

You will begin to hate them, embrace these emotions. Soon you will get to the stage where you no longer hate them but you no longer like them either. The key is indifference. In the end they should feel like a stranger to you.

 

I give you props for staying off facebook, that is really hard to do. Keep it up, you're doing really well. It's 2 months for me now, I was feeling angry at 1 month aswell and now I'm just kinda empty, no anger, not much love for the ex. At 3 months I think I will feel barely anything at all.