Miss her so much after such a long time

[hurt.in.perth]

I bet there has been thousands of these posts so here is mine. Please excuse any bad grammar etc.....we met at Kendo training she was new to the dojo, she was (is) so beautiful and all the other members where in awe of her me most of all. It was mid December when she first joined and it just turned out we spent most of our lessons together me teaching her one on one as she was the only beginner. The first gift she gave me was a bunch of macaroons for xmas. This blew me away big time but no feelings as yet as we where strictly dojo partners she later confided that she would flirt with me non stop and I never once saw it lol she even said she used to try show of her g-string lmao (I am quite shy and very much ignorant of how women flirt etc) I guess I digress abit......anyhow on the 31st dec I awoke to my phones facebook notification IT WAS HER she wanted to meet for drinks omfg me she wanted to spend time with me. I accepted and we met up. That first date ended great except I didnt know how to end it....kiss or hug.....she grabbed me and answered for me things went well for two months not well freaking awesome I fell in love but never told her yet. Her parents where awesome and we got on great as did her brother and I. Buuuuuuut she had issues with my X.....the mother of my two beautifull children. I get on great with my X we are and always will be mates I guess my new woman did not understand. Its here I need to point out that new woman is a uni student and is verry career driven which I loved. I will cut the dribble out now one day she told me it was over she was not ready to settle down and she had alot to do before she does. I took it hard and basically lost everything. ..job, home, car, everything.....not drugs etc basically follow on from losing job. It has been nearly 2 years and I still love her sooooo much oh she rang me once and told me we lost a baby she blames our jui jitsu training and drinking etc apparently she was not aware of being pregnant or something. Anyhow I just wanted to sort of share my story (I wanted to write so much mire but cant be bothered as im on my phone) hope to hear others opinions etc.....oh we never had huge fights etc she did tell me she loved me and I was the best guy she was ever with she had a ****ty past and that it was just timing but worst of all I hear she is now married **** now im crying like a bitch lol