Author me85 Posted November 24, 2013 Author Posted November 24, 2013 My ex didn't cheat on me (that I know of), but I still feel so distrustful of people because of him. It makes me sick to think that I ever wanted this person back. I know how you feel. I've never been cheated on and manipulated before. But I'm looking forward to being happy with someone in the future who I know I can trust and hopefully spend the rest of my life with. Right now I'm working on myself and picking up the pieces. I'm even going to get a make over I think to give me a little self esteem boost. 2
BC1980 Posted November 24, 2013 Posted November 24, 2013 I know how you feel. I've never been cheated on and manipulated before. But I'm looking forward to being happy with someone in the future who I know I can trust and hopefully spend the rest of my life with. Right now I'm working on myself and picking up the pieces. I'm even going to get a make over I think to give me a little self esteem boost. I'm at a point where I can't even believe that I ever knew this person. Who is he? I used to walk around so angry. I would just walk around pissed off all day. Now, I don't even care. It's hilarious because I don't even care enough to be mad at him. You will get there one day. It took me 7 long months of heartache. You will make it. I'm getting to indifference. I'm not all the way there, but I've had a major breakthrough this past week. Stamping that POS out of my life has made all the difference. What a dysfunctional human being. I can't believe I ever thought that is what I deserved. 2
BC1980 Posted November 24, 2013 Posted November 24, 2013 But I'm looking forward to being happy with someone in the future who I know I can trust and hopefully spend the rest of my life with. I definitely want to find someone else. You can't tell me there isn't better out there. Believe it or not, there are actually people out there capable of commitment and who deserve our trust. It's our fault if we keep giving power to our exes and don't open ourselves up to a new life. 1
Author me85 Posted November 24, 2013 Author Posted November 24, 2013 I'm at a point where I can't even believe that I ever knew this person. Who is he? I used to walk around so angry. I would just walk around pissed off all day. Now, I don't even care. It's hilarious because I don't even care enough to be mad at him. You will get there one day. It took me 7 long months of heartache. You will make it. I'm getting to indifference. I'm not all the way there, but I've had a major breakthrough this past week. Stamping that POS out of my life has made all the difference. What a dysfunctional human being. I can't believe I ever thought that is what I deserved. Thank you so much and I'm so happy to hear you have made such a breakthrough! I really feel the same way. Who is he? Did I ever really know him at all? It's so funny just weeks ago (& apparently while he was already involved with someone else) he tells me we got together too fast in the beginning before we "healed" from our previous break ups with other people. HA! & look at we is doing, jumping ship…just like that. What a major JERK. He is a VERY dysfunctional person as well. I can't believe I settled for someone like that. Oh, and he was abusive in every way. Boy was I the fool. I realize now that I thought (because he really made me believe and put me down) that I deserved that kind of treatment and that I WAS the problem. He had complete control over me emotionally and he knew it.
Author me85 Posted November 24, 2013 Author Posted November 24, 2013 FROM BC1980 "I used to walk around so angry. I would just walk around pissed off all day" This is the stage I'm in. I need prozac.
freebird31 Posted November 24, 2013 Posted November 24, 2013 I'm at a point where I can't even believe that I ever knew this person. Who is he? I used to walk around so angry. I would just walk around pissed off all day. Now, I don't even care. It's hilarious because I don't even care enough to be mad at him. You will get there one day. It took me 7 long months of heartache. You will make it. I'm getting to indifference. I'm not all the way there, but I've had a major breakthrough this past week. Stamping that POS out of my life has made all the difference. What a dysfunctional human being. I can't believe I ever thought that is what I deserved. It has been 7 months for me too! and i have been feeling so much better as well. Although Im also not completey there I am NO WHERE near where i once was. Im in a good place. a happy place. like you, it took me 7 damn months of ups and downs highs and lows. I think if i would have just ignored all his attempts of trying to speak to me after time after time of me explaining i needed my space, I would be at an even better place. It finally ALL STOPPED two months ago. I feel so happy now that he hasnt been around and disappeared off the face of the planet. I can only imagine how much over it i would have been if it was NC from the START. but go us! 1
Author me85 Posted November 24, 2013 Author Posted November 24, 2013 Every day is getting better for me. It's a lot easier to move on when they are pure scum and are hoeing around. YUK. He's so gross!
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