forgetmenot75 Posted November 10, 2013 Posted November 10, 2013 Life goes on. One month and a half since last contacting him and blocking him forever (http://www.loveshack.org/forums/romantic/other-man-woman/386292-dealing-difficult-man-difficult-situacion) and this (http://www.loveshack.org/forums/breaking-up-reconciliation-coping/breaks-breaking-up/400507-he-not-replying-anymore) and I still find myself wanting to see him, hug him, laugh with him. My life has been difficult lately, my ex husband is making my life difficult and the only thing I want is to run to him and forget about all my miseries. the only thing I dream about is that I park my car outside his home and he comes to greet me, and we smile, hug and kiss forever, and life is beautiful. then, I find myself wanting him to connect with me, but there's no possible way since he's blocked from everywhere. I miss him. He was an idiot, a player, he used me for sex, he didn't care for me or love me, he lied to me, he was with other women, and still I miss that times where at least I felt alive. It was painful, but at least I felt something. Now I feel nothing. Sad Sunday
movingbackwards Posted November 10, 2013 Posted November 10, 2013 You're going to be just fine! It seems like the way you described him you really dodged a bullet. Good for you. You will find someone who isn't going to use you and cheat on you. I know it's chiche, but time will move you past this. 2
Zahara Posted November 10, 2013 Posted November 10, 2013 One of those days. You feel that emptiness the most when you're facing hardship. Needing that shoulder or someone to carry the load with you. I understand how you feel and have those days myself, but the pain and worry is much less when you're aren't trying to get over a broken heart. Everything is still fresh for you. You truly have to just push through one day at a time. There is no other way. Do you have friends? Family? Interests? Grey Sunday and indoors? Do you bake? Do you like writing? Painting? Reading? Knitting? Days like this when you're home and feeling blue with your thoughts, find something to do that makes you feel good about yourself. I'm feeling blue today and I'm baking and making something I have never tried before. Takes my mind off and when I am finished, I feel quite accomplished and proud of myself!
Author forgetmenot75 Posted November 10, 2013 Author Posted November 10, 2013 You're going to be just fine! It seems like the way you described him you really dodged a bullet. Good for you. You will find someone who isn't going to use you and cheat on you. I know it's chiche, but time will move you past this. Thank you. you can't imagine how much I appreciate your words right now. Thank you
Author forgetmenot75 Posted November 10, 2013 Author Posted November 10, 2013 One of those days. You feel that emptiness the most when you're facing hardship. Needing that shoulder or someone to carry the load with you. I understand how you feel and have those days myself, but the pain and worry is much less when you're aren't trying to get over a broken heart. Everything is still fresh for you. You truly have to just push through one day at a time. There is no other way. Do you have friends? Family? Interests? Grey Sunday and indoors? Do you bake? Do you like writing? Painting? Reading? Knitting? Days like this when you're home and feeling blue with your thoughts, find something to do that makes you feel good about yourself. I'm feeling blue today and I'm baking and making something I have never tried before. Takes my mind off and when I am finished, I feel quite accomplished and proud of myself! Aww Sahara, hi! What are you doing here on Sunday? I have tickets for the theatre this afternoon, and I was thinking on cross stitch again, I should buy some patterns... I saw a movie last Friday, "Enough said", and the home of the male protagonist was identical to his home. that triggered a lot of memories. Since then I only dream of coming back to his home. It was so cozy... I know is still fresh, but damn, I've been undergoing this misery for so long (since December 2012) I'm exhausted...
Haydn Posted November 10, 2013 Posted November 10, 2013 I am with you. I know how you feel and have complete empathy. My ex was an idiot as well. Seems we always miss idiots. I am at 3 months as i keep telling anyone who still cares to listen! It does get better but it goes in waves. Some days can feel like there is no point and other days are just fine. he lied to you and you can now have the power to control that. If he lied once how many times could you put up with being his doormat? You are doing great! Keep going, Sunday is almost over. No listening to The Smiths! Take care. Life goes on. One month and a half since last contacting him and blocking him forever (http://www.loveshack.org/forums/romantic/other-man-woman/386292-dealing-difficult-man-difficult-situacion) and this (http://www.loveshack.org/forums/breaking-up-reconciliation-coping/breaks-breaking-up/400507-he-not-replying-anymore) and I still find myself wanting to see him, hug him, laugh with him. My life has been difficult lately, my ex husband is making my life difficult and the only thing I want is to run to him and forget about all my miseries. the only thing I dream about is that I park my car outside his home and he comes to greet me, and we smile, hug and kiss forever, and life is beautiful. then, I find myself wanting him to connect with me, but there's no possible way since he's blocked from everywhere. I miss him. He was an idiot, a player, he used me for sex, he didn't care for me or love me, he lied to me, he was with other women, and still I miss that times where at least I felt alive. It was painful, but at least I felt something. Now I feel nothing. Sad Sunday
Zahara Posted November 10, 2013 Posted November 10, 2013 Aww Sahara, hi! What are you doing here on Sunday? I have tickets for the theatre this afternoon, and I was thinking on cross stitch again, I should buy some patterns... I saw a movie last Friday, "Enough said", and the home of the male protagonist was identical to his home. that triggered a lot of memories. Since then I only dream of coming back to his home. It was so cozy... I know is still fresh, but damn, I've been undergoing this misery for so long (since December 2012) I'm exhausted... I just finished putting my cake in the oven, cleaned the kitchen and waiting to see what comes out from the oven in about 45 minutes. Taking a break and checking out LS and saw your thread. I have a banana bread loaf to make after this! I cross-stitch too and there are so many patterns to choose from. That should keep you very busy! That's good that you have plans to the theatre. It will help you take your mind off even if just for a few hours. Misery. Yes, I've had a lot of difficult years myself and still struggle through. Life is to be lived. What's the alternative? We make the best of it and keep going. I volunteer at a shelter and it helps most times to change my perspective and while I regard my life as hard, it could have been much, much worse. Have fun this afternoon. Get dressed up in a pretty dress. Wear your favorite heels and do your hair! Go out and enjoy the day! 1
Author forgetmenot75 Posted November 11, 2013 Author Posted November 11, 2013 can you believe, this stupid POF shows me who's online (3am) and I get to see his idiotic face pic? How come, I blocked him?!
Lordhellish Posted November 11, 2013 Posted November 11, 2013 Block on POF doesn't block them from any search results, it just blocks them from being able to contact you.
hurt.in.perth Posted November 11, 2013 Posted November 11, 2013 I read your post and it made me so sad. I am going through the same thing myself 2years now. I so hope it works out for you and everyone else who is going through the same crap. Good luck mate
Author forgetmenot75 Posted November 12, 2013 Author Posted November 12, 2013 I read your post and it made me so sad. I am going through the same thing myself 2years now. I so hope it works out for you and everyone else who is going through the same crap. Good luck mate I don;t see any point on common. you actually had a relationship with her. I didn't.
Author forgetmenot75 Posted November 12, 2013 Author Posted November 12, 2013 Just googled his name and of course, I found all this homo dating sites, sex sites etc. In my case, I think is not bad to actually remember who he is. In my mind I put him in a pedestal, and I see the reality when I actually see who he really is. Trash. He tries to pretend he's a good father and a nice guy when in reality he's a predator, a liar, and a player. I don't know what type of women would sleep with him. Desperate ones, as I was. He can only pick up low self esteem women, he's so creepy omg. In one dating site, he has nude pics of himself, I'd say there are gay pics, not masculine at all. I hate myself. what have I done to me? Fell prey of such an idiot...
Haydn Posted November 12, 2013 Posted November 12, 2013 try to stop googling etc.... You are making it worse. You shouldn`t care what he is doing. Do you think he is googling you? Dont do this to yourself. Take care. Just googled his name and of course, I found all this homo dating sites, sex sites etc. In my case, I think is not bad to actually remember who he is. In my mind I put him in a pedestal, and I see the reality when I actually see who he really is. Trash. He tries to pretend he's a good father and a nice guy when in reality he's a predator, a liar, and a player. I don't know what type of women would sleep with him. Desperate ones, as I was. He can only pick up low self esteem women, he's so creepy omg. In one dating site, he has nude pics of himself, I'd say there are gay pics, not masculine at all. I hate myself. what have I done to me? Fell prey of such an idiot...
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