theonewithnoname Posted November 6, 2013 Posted November 6, 2013 Hey guys and girls i new here! Don`t feel really comfortable doing this,but what the heck i need some help.And sorry for my bad english. Me and my girlfriend are together for more then 6 years now.It was not a easy time we had a lot of fights and i cheated on here couple of time.And i admit i was behaving like a idiot to her. But in the last year or so i tried to change to make this relationship work the way it should.I don`t know if i was doing the right thing or not. We spoke couple of times to try to resolve our problems but she was telling me that she feels confused,she would like to go on a mountain and be alone or in a small white room.She started working in videochat couple of months ago, and she said that she feels strange when she looks at a mean now,but i am kinda of an exception. She says that she still loves me and she would like this relationship to work. What i think is wrong in this relationship is the communication.We both don`t know how to communicate with each other. And 2 days ago when she was supposed to come at my place and speak she tells me on facebook something like "She really dosent know what to say,that she is thinking that atleast we should take a brea,and its not my fault and she will understand if i don`t wait for her".After an hour arguing on the phone to see face to face a speak eventually we met up at a pub.We speak a little we are kinda ok.Then she invites her friend because she was at home alone...this kinda makes me crazy and i start drinking all its ok for a short period (1h tops) they i get drunk.She was not feeling to good and i started with retarded question like "can i flirt with your friend?" and we fight a little eventually we leave the place and to much alcohol and clouded judgement i kinda start crying and trying to convince her to come at my place....and i make a bad scene embarrassing her and myself.I didnt had money for a cab so i walked of course fighting on the way on the phone asking her to come pick me up..... I know i was extremly pathetic i don`t do well when i drink to much and mix it with sentiments. After i chill thanks to the walking in the cold i start thinking a little and we start speaking more like normal people.And she says to me to find other way to our problem. Next i wake up and i let her be so she can chill a little after the bad incident. We spoke a little after she woke up. Today i saw that she added some pictures with her friend and writing something like "New friendship.Fresh start" and we are not anymore in a relationship and she is with this girl.Maybe for some people this is stupid i dont know if this matter to much or not.And i see that she put as cover a photo with a rose that i bought for her bday couple of weeks ago. We spoke on facebook a little and i told her if shes still willing to another solution other then a break.and she said yes but she would like a proof that this relationship can work that we can make it better. I`m scarred of a break because i dont want to lose her.The thought of her finding some other guy drives me insane. So guys/girls what do you think???What other solution can there be?? How can i now what this break means??? And yes i now i was a jerk.But im really trying to change to be better
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