Feeling much better!

[Lost_Dragon]

So.. I sent my ex a text.

Basically saying I was getting the jeep towed and to not contact me anymore. I immediately got a flood of texts back from her. She said I was acting like a jerk and I was mad because we broke up. She said I was pissed because of her new boyfriend and they are getting an apartment in January. So I sent a text back saying, I don't want to know about her relationship and I'm not being a jerk. I'm tired of being jerked around. I also said that she can't make me hate her no matter how hard she tries. I told her to always remember our good times. I told her that I already have everything I need from her and she holds a place inside of me. I hope she has a similar place inside of her for me.

 

More flood of texts followed..

I decided to call her to clear the air.

 

She picked up immediately. At first we were shouting a bit, but I needed to let her know I am fine without her. She wanted badly to know if I was with someone new. I told her, I'm not like her and I am fine being alone. I've always been that way. So she tells me, it was her new boyfriend who was bugging her to take the jeep because he needs a car. She said it pissed her off and she felt really bad about it. After he got the jeep he realized the work involved and decided to give it back. He is only 22 years old, she is 36. I was kind of creeped out at her about that. She said she worries about losing him because of the age difference and that he will lose interest in an older woman. She told me a load of things that worry her about him. I told her the worrying was one of the reasons WE didn't work out. That she is just doing the same thing to him. She agreed with me and we had some laughs. She told me how she always talks about me with him. Not bad things. I told her how that will also push him away.. I told her how she is moving too fast and she agreed. Still doing it anyway..

 

So.. I let her know how I need my space and we will never be enemies. I feel I really need to distance myself from her to keep my life moving along. If she ever really badly needs me, I will be there for her as a friend. We will never be a couple again though. To STOP worrying about me and just focus on her life. She agreed. Many things were said and it felt good to get some sort of closure.

 

I agreed to let her sign the jeep over to me.

 

It was awkward saying goodbye on the phone, like we didn't know how to.. A long silence.. I told her to take care and we will be in touch soon about the jeep.

 

This was only a summary of what was said. Bottom line is, she knows that I'm fine without her and there is no bitterness between us. Her family still loves me and I feel the same way.

 

She admitted to spying on my FB after she was already with the new guy. Said she was worried about me. She saw some bad things I said about her to my other ex. I told her she had no right to be doing that and she was never meant to see that. It was more of a joke, I said to make myself feel better. After I changed my password she panicked and started texting me.

 

Anyways..

 

I feel much better clearing the air and not being so stubborn ignoring her. She knows that I am fine now. To respect my space until I choose otherwise and stop worrying about me and everything in general because it's not fair to her new boyfriend.

 

A dark cloud has been lifted and I feel like a new person!

 

I realize how immature her actions are and how this new relationship of hers will most likely end sooner or later. Not to my benefit or anything, but it gave me a good look at her from outside the box.

 

More reasons to let go and keep moving forward.

 

It just so happens it was her birthday yesterday also.

I acted surprised and like I forgot it.

She seemed offended but I told her that after all we've been through, To NOT hold that against me. She didn't.

 

I will always care about her.