movingbackwards Posted November 3, 2013 Posted November 3, 2013 It's my birthday "week" per say and I'm having a really tough time right now. I wish I could tell if what I'm feeling is just being lonely or if I'm just really really still in love with this woman. I was doing really well. I was mad at her for leaving me and treating me like crap during our breakup. She came by after 4 months of no contact (LTR of 5 years) and she apologized and really showed her sweet side. Now she's gone again and it hurts just as bad as the day we broke it off. She kept hinting at "if we got back together" and told me she needed time to think about what she wanted to do. We went NC after the meet up. She's hanging out with her rebound again after he was emotionally and verbally abusive to her. She came to me when they broke it off and now claims they're still "friends" like they've always been so they still hang out. I was so content being mad at her but now I'm honestly not mad, I just want her back. I wish I knew why. I love her. Coming home from my birthday dinner has really just made me feel lonely. Thanks for reading.
loveofhorses1970 Posted November 3, 2013 Posted November 3, 2013 She was the last person you felt comfortable with. What you are going through is anything but comfortable, and you automatically want to go back to stop the pain. It will pass.
Mz_sassy_77 Posted November 3, 2013 Posted November 3, 2013 I absolutely know how you feel. My EX was horrible to me during our BU. And now he is making out that being in a relationship with me was so terrible so horrible he is just so happy to be rid of me - and I didn't do anything to him. Was a bit of a shock really. Birthdays, special events, etc always bring this sort of thing up. I think it takes a long time to move on from someone you loved. The only thing that is going to make it better is time I think. Hang in there. Lots of people on here say it gets a lot easier as time goes on.
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