shagge Posted November 2, 2013 Posted November 2, 2013 Hi everyone new to the site and just wanted to try posting to see if i can get better.Sorry if my grammar and punctuation is horrible. Broke up 1 week ago So this is my story, I have been with this girl for only 5 months and we took 5 months before to get to know each other. We both weren't looking for a relationship, didn't think about getting married, and having babies. That all changed once we started dating, we were so in love with each other. I know 5 months is a short period of time to know anything for sure. But I was planning on proposing in Dec and getting married in Mar (which was the month she wanted). When we first started dating I went out with my friends and her to eat dinner, we saw one her ex's friends and he asked who she came with and her answer was co-workers which my friends heard her say also, I was mad asked why she said it and she told me she doesn't want any drama between her and her ex. Then a month and a half into the relationship she says she was married then divorced and didn't know how to tell me. I once again got mad and started losing trust. A little after she said she was going to eat dinner with her friend so I was all for it, it turned out to be her, her friend, and two guys which seemed a little awkward for me. She called me and told me oh I'll be done in about 30 min so I'll see you at home. An hour passes and no call so I call no answer (I tried a couple of times), finally someone picks up the phone and just hangs up, try to call again and same thing no answer of course I got upset again. She calls me 30 mins later saying I am on my way (drunk). As time progresses i started to have resentment and i guess I just couldn't let go. Even when she was showing that she loved me and willing to anything for me i was still so mad. We used to see each other everyday and talk on the phone everyday. It seemed like things were going ok. One day we just started talking less and seeing each other less. She tells me she still loves me. She tells me she is going camping with her friends that are all couples and some of there friends are coming. We get into a fight while drinking and eating dinner, I tell her its ok to go but i just want you to understand my perspective she keeps telling me but i want to go, i want to go. I guess i got mad and told her you know what maybe we aren't compatible(which was my first mistake) but the night progresses and it ends with both of laughing. Then we get into another fight a week later because we haven't talked on the phone very much and i finally got a chance but all she is doing is holding the, I try to ask her questions and she just answers like i am being a bother,so I get mad again, and text her the more time passes it seems i find things i hate about you(2nd mistake). She tells me find then lets end it. We decide to stay together 1 week after her camping trip we go out again.Dinner and drinks we are talking having a good time and she tells me why is it every time i do something wrong you want compensation, i try to explain that is not what i need but just an apology(just like i do when i do something wrong). She keeps telling me the same thing and i tell her you know what, i have trying to bend over backwards and let you do the things you want to do so if you cant appreciate it then F you then. She gets mad and leaves and i stop her, she gets a call from her mom and says we have to take her niece to disneyland the next day, so she tells me to sleep over her house tonight. We come back to my house to pick up my stuff and we are talking in the car and she say weren't we breaking up and as i am trying to explain myself and apologize she says my bro is home so we need to move the car. As i pull out she pulls the car out and leaves( it is an indoor garage) i try calling out to her and she still leaves i call her on her phone (now mad) and say why did you just leave and she says she is looking for street parking. My brothers follow me out and say did they make a mistake and i tell them no. She comes back and i start to yell(3rd mistake) and all she can say is why are you yelling at least your bro has his parking space. We go to her house and everything seems ok we wake up and go to disneyland then the next day she says oh i cant see you today because i have to do some stuff my parents but plans get cancelled and she said she didnt want to see me, she is unhappy with me and she does not love me anymore. She said i disgust her the way i am and i dont see a future with you and can never see myself with you again. She says that she tried and she cant try anymore. I cant change because that is just the way i am. i called her tue and finally told her ok i'll move on. i was a mess for the week and finally decided i cant do this i have to pick myself up and be better on fri and started laughing again joking and stop talking about her. i was about to sleep and she calls me and says i was using my bluetooth and pushed last call and called you by accident i was trying to call my friend and tell them i am on my way home i told her that i am sorry for all the things i did and she said it doesnt matter anymore. she then reminded me 2 more times that i called you by accident. I know the mistakes i made and i am learning from it. Dont know what to do anymore? It feels like i am back at square one. I still dont have any hope. I still love her and those are things i never wanted to hear. I know there is nothing i can do to change the past but i guess i just wanted to change the future
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