Omei Posted November 2, 2013 Posted November 2, 2013 i have changed so much im so cold any interest shown in me I push away, I dont think of them often I quickly put it out of my mind, he is a dream a dillusion I still feel close too him in some strange way im healed to a point of not needing them. I want someone to sweep me off my feet for once I want someone to show me theres still reason to try or chase i think I have gotten so uncaring now =/ How will anyone ever see through that. 2
Lost_Dragon Posted November 2, 2013 Posted November 2, 2013 I know the feeling. It's not that you are "uncaring", you fear more heartache. The word "jaded" comes to mind. Slow down. Take your time. Don't give up! 2
Author Omei Posted November 2, 2013 Author Posted November 2, 2013 There was some verbal abuse quite a lot near the end, im more so trying to get over that then the relationship now my first relationship was physically abusive. It seems like im always having to rebuild my trust and belief in people again over and over. When I think about dating I often ponder how long till they start calling me names etc how long till they take my love in turn it into something ugly. Maybe I need counciling
Lost_Dragon Posted November 2, 2013 Posted November 2, 2013 There was some verbal abuse quite a lot near the end, im more so trying to get over that then the relationship now my first relationship was physically abusive. It seems like im always having to rebuild my trust and belief in people again over and over. When I think about dating I often ponder how long till they start calling me names etc how long till they take my love in turn it into something ugly. Maybe I need counciling Try to live in the moment. When you worry about the future, remind yourself that in that moment it is just your imagination and not REAL. Focus on your REAL senses at that present moment. Sights, sounds, details that make you happy in real time. Ask yourself if these fears will matter in one year from now. Chances are that by then you'll realize that your fears have only had a negative impact on your life, relationships, etc. Avoid negative people who make you worry. Maybe it isn't just YOU. Seek people who make you feel positive.
Author Omei Posted November 4, 2013 Author Posted November 4, 2013 Thanks I have not been living in the moment as much as I was last time I hung out with my bestie was a month ago she has gotten back together with her bf and they have moved in together, with that and on top of her night shifts I have felt pretty alone =[ and im not gonna bring up the I need yous again because its been 9 months im okay just a little lonely :'(
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