Can I get her back?

[racerX421]

Sorry for the long post!

 

I have been with my girlfriend for almost 6 yrs. We loved spending time doing everything together. I thought she was unfaithful a couple of times, but she swore to god she never did anything. I believe her now. (that she is gone) We talked about children and marriage, and how she truly loved me so much! We argued due to my anger and trusting issues with her. She would hang out with her friends at the bars, clubs, dancing most of the time without me knowing. Either I was working, or found out later about it and got upset. (who wouldn't?) She explained to me it's just "girl's night out." In which I did respect that, because I cared. She has told me she has grind-ed on other men and what not.(also pissed me off.) She still claimed loyalty though.

 

Time passed and we were happy for a while. Her Birthday was on a Sunday. The Thursday before her birthday, she said I love you and good night. (she lives with parents still) We had plans to do things on her B-day. (Sat-Sun) I received a "Butt dial" at 1 am Friday from her. All I heard was her and another guy laughing it up and having a great time. This really hurt me. Later on that Fri. I called her, she passed out over there, better than driving drunk. I started accusing her with that man and the party. She said it was a surprise B-day party. "that I wasn't invited to" I gave her a hard time and said some things I regret!!! Like, "who are you laying next to?" "you're a liar!" and "we're done" she kept saying nobody and she got mad at me. (can you blame her?) I called her later to talk about it. She wanted nothing to do with me, she said we are done, and to take her gifts back were I got them. I was so heart broken!

 

Later that Friday, I went to the store and bought her some flowers and a birthday card. Just a little something to give her. (not the best idea. I know.) I drove to her house and she was already outside getting ready to go shopping. The look on her face looked pissed off and sad! She told me it was the happiest day in her life and that I need to leave. She said she wanted "no-contact" if I wanted to ever hear from her again. We both had tears in our eyes and I said that I loved her as I walked to my car. She said thank you for the flowers. I tried to text her in my car to get her to talk to me. She wanted not to eat, hang out, nor talk to me what so ever. Then she texts me, "If you don't leave, I will file a restraining order" So, I left. Her B-day came, and I left a voice mail and text telling her happy birthday and what not. No reply.The following Thursday, I tried again saying I would change my ways through voice mail and text. No response. I stopped texts and calling her completely.

 

I did a bunch of research online for the "right" no contact method. 2 weeks after not hearing from her, I wrote hand written letter. It stated that I agree with her decision to break up, how I know what i did and said was wrong, and something fortunate happened to me, but that we still need time apart. I know her friends aren't giving her the best advise! After we split up, she parties more than ever. She is easy to be led the wrong way. She blocked me on Face Book, but still has our pictures up. But posted "single" I still have not heard from her. It's been only 2 weeks since we split off. I want her back though. I figured if I gave some time she might have a change of heart. I have not called or text her since. I know she hasn't left me for another man yet because all of her friends post that there are guys she should meet. I'm changing my life for myself, and I want to prove to her that I can change and am a good person for her. I don't want to lose her forever, but I already accepted the fact she won't come back. I don't want to be her friend. I want to be her lover again. After I lost her, I realize how good she really was to me. She used to get defensive whenever I would ask about being faithful. I understand I was "clingy" and "needy" which is a total turn-off to anyone. I am no longer like this now! Just hopes she can see the good in me again. I honestly want change for the better. I miss her still, have no problem going out on dates with other women. (not ready yet) Just really want her back. I feel bad I let her down!

Edited November 2, 2013 by racerX421
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