NC_unbearable Posted November 1, 2013 Posted November 1, 2013 I'm so confused, and I have been doing so good. The last 2 days, she was here at my house packing. It went really really good, and was the only contact we have had after the breakup (2 days of contact after breakup). I have been so strong, and before she came, I was actually feeling happy, I was getting out, and falling back in love with myself. Today I am just not recovering so easy, I am no where near over her. I am tempted to just call her right now because it is unbearable how much I am missing her. I wont though, she still needs space to find out what she really wants in life, and even though it hurts, I just want her to be happy. I'm just trying to express some of my feelings, so that I can continue to heal. I miss my Love, and I'm so sorry that I was nothing but a source of stress. Its soo hard having a job, and being a full time student, and coming home to a 2 year old. If I knew this was coming I would have made the changes... Uhggg... Theres still a chance I can turn this day around. And I'm going to go find it.
nbman Posted November 1, 2013 Posted November 1, 2013 Stay strong. Hold that 2 year old close, their laughter is infectious.... 3
headinthecloud Posted November 1, 2013 Posted November 1, 2013 This helped me get through the rough days. Topics of Breakup Recovery Guide What you're feeling is part of the rollercoaster. Don't give in, stay NC. Go for a walk, workout, anything - try to keep your body and your mind busy. It will pass. 5
Author NC_unbearable Posted November 1, 2013 Author Posted November 1, 2013 I texted her... I don't know, I think it was a very positive thing. The thing is, we have a 2 year old daughter, and I am going to see that girl no matter what. There is no way I can ever avoid talking to her Mom. I took a phone session before I said hi, and was able to clear my mind. The tricks I've been talking about are powerful, but they are hard to consistently use. I called her I AM SO LUCKY to have the help I have in my life. The ex sounds happy, and I am just ecstatic that there is no bad feelings between us. The cool thing is, after contacting her, I don't feel like I wanted her back, though I made sure to cleanse my mind enough before hand to not want her. The mind is a powerful tool. But, if your reading this and thinking its a good idea. Its probably not. lol <3
Zoe Lilith Posted November 2, 2013 Posted November 2, 2013 as nbman already said, hold your 2 year old toddler like there is no tomorrow..nothing is more precious and nothing can make you feel better than a honest laughter of a child.
loveofhorses1970 Posted November 2, 2013 Posted November 2, 2013 Headinthecloud, that link is awesome! Thank you for sharing!!!
Lokie Posted November 2, 2013 Posted November 2, 2013 Hi NC, hang in there. Please know you are NOT ALONE. Countless people across the globe are feeling the pain of loss as I write this. It is part of life. Sometimes knowing this helped ease my deep pain. Your work now is to be a great Dad, take amazingly good care of yourself, do whatever mind cleansing stuff you were talking about, and stay strong. The lessons you will see on the other side of this pain will knock your socks off (in a good way!). ((Big hug from another Californian)) 2
Haydn Posted November 3, 2013 Posted November 3, 2013 Its torture i know. I lost sight of my daughter when i was with my ex. Dont do this. You will regret it later. Have as little contact as is possible. Keep going. Take care. 1
Haydn Posted November 3, 2013 Posted November 3, 2013 Yes it was great. Thanks. Headinthecloud, that link is awesome! Thank you for sharing!!!
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