Zoe Lilith Posted November 1, 2013 Posted November 1, 2013 We're supposed to meet tomorrow to exchange some stuff. I have some tshirts... but more importantly he has my f*cking macbook!!! and i so certainly need it for college... also, there's the issue of the tv we bought together - and he kept after we broke up - but the bill is coming to my account, because we bought it with my credit card. So deff there's some stuff to talk about... but yeah, 3 am really?? wth??! you had all day dude, come on ..be brave tomorrow, don't listen to any irrelevant talk (if he starts talking about the relatonship), remind him that you accepted his wish, that you're no longer together and that there is no point discussing it..remember your own advice "STAY STRONG" 1
xUnknown Posted November 1, 2013 Posted November 1, 2013 So.. long story short: 2 years together, 1 month of NC. Ugly break up. Have to meet tomorrow, we need to exchange stuff and talk some money issues. Guys, seriously, I'm like THIS close to go wait him at he's doorstep and tell him my life is hell without him. I know how he'd react. He'd just get proof of how deranged I am and that leaving me was the best thing he's ever done. I just know he doesn't give a crap anymore and that I'm going through this sh*t and he doesn't even care and it KILLS me that I'm the only one suffering here. It sucks. It really, really sucks. I was so closed up when we first met, I wouldn't let anyone in because I was scared to death. He broke my walls, I let it all out, he knows me like an open book. And what for? What good did any of this do me? Nothing. I should have kept my castle well guarded... I hate myself for falling for him so hard. I don't want to meet anyone else ever again. There will always be a chance I have to go through this crap again and there's no way I'm ever letting this happen again. I'm angry, nostalgic, sorry, depressed and desperate all at once. I feel pathetic... I don't even know what the hell I'm doing writing this I just needed to let it out. Let it out, thats what it is there for...that's what you need to do. When you meet him, stick to your guns. Be calm, be patient. If you need to, write a list of bad qualities and why he DOESNT deserve you. I did that before my ex and I broke up and I don't think I could have handled a break up any better than that one. No tears, no choking up, just a simple conversation - because that is what I prepared for. He will have so much more respect for you if you don't show emotion. Hell, I'm sure he'll even question the fact and you'll leave him with questions he wants to ask you...not the other way around. In the end, HE will be the one that wants to know "why wasn't she sad, had she really let me go?" ...that thought will rot in his mind, like a catalyst. Let it do its work. 2
Zoe Lilith Posted November 1, 2013 Posted November 1, 2013 Hi cristy, just wondering how it went? Hope everything is O.K and it all went as planned? :-)
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