winstonsdreams Posted October 30, 2013 Posted October 30, 2013 Well i heard some news last night that kind of shocked me yet i was still expecting to hear it at some stage, my ex is engaged to the new dude. What a strange wave of emotions, but at the same time if there has ever been a kick up the butt to move on this was it. I can't believe i still think of her everyday and while generally life is ok, i still can't put my finger on why i tell people i am miserable all the time when they ask 'so man how you been?'. I still live with the regret of leaving everyday yet know i could never go back, so why do i still care? I have been in NC for nearly 16 months, i have seen her once in person and only one photo on a friends Facebook account which cut deep. I still find i have some weird dreams about her too. I am so grateful for this website, i really do hope i find that spark again i don't want to just settle for less. I have felt amazing chemistry before and attraction and love and i know i deserve to feel it again! At the end of the day i can only be happy for her for finding 'the one' i suppose. Yet here i am on LS pouring my heart out still. I guess the day i stop posting on here i will know i am truly over it..
lindsay1990 Posted October 30, 2013 Posted October 30, 2013 Well i heard some news last night that kind of shocked me yet i was still expecting to hear it at some stage, my ex is engaged to the new dude. What a strange wave of emotions, but at the same time if there has ever been a kick up the butt to move on this was it. I can't believe i still think of her everyday and while generally life is ok, i still can't put my finger on why i tell people i am miserable all the time when they ask 'so man how you been?'. I still live with the regret of leaving everyday yet know i could never go back, so why do i still care? I have been in NC for nearly 16 months, i have seen her once in person and only one photo on a friends Facebook account which cut deep. I still find i have some weird dreams about her too. I am so grateful for this website, i really do hope i find that spark again i don't want to just settle for less. I have felt amazing chemistry before and attraction and love and i know i deserve to feel it again! At the end of the day i can only be happy for her for finding 'the one' i suppose. Yet here i am on LS pouring my heart out still. I guess the day i stop posting on here i will know i am truly over it.. Internet hugs:bunny:
ponchsox Posted October 30, 2013 Posted October 30, 2013 Good for her. Now move on and find your future wife. 1
Author winstonsdreams Posted October 31, 2013 Author Posted October 31, 2013 Thank you guys this is a nice place to vent as you all know. It's good to not feel so alone sometimes! I will find her i know i will!
Reels Posted October 31, 2013 Posted October 31, 2013 Because you are the real man. Maybe love is not all about gaining, but it's about feeling, if you still feel that you love her, while she has went really far from you, it's still you are the one who's real human.
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