30 days down the line.

[Lizrd3000]

After implenting LC (not talking to her, and keeping it REALLY short when she talks to me on whatsapp) I feel alot better and more confident than I was 30 days ago.

 

I made a mistake by logging into her facebook yesterday night before going to bed, really stupid, I know. but what I've found was not what I expected.

she stated that she missed me to one of her girlfriends. I expected her to have another boyfriend.

 

after this stupid incident I went to bed and couldn't sleep for hours, but eventually that passed and I went to sleep.

 

now, I woke up a few hours ago, feel worse than I did 2 days ago, but I've learned from this mistake, and I know this too shall pass, even quicker than it did before.

 

so as of now, I'm happy where I'm at, and I wont be making any stupid mistakes anymore. I'm in control.

 

I have no idea why I went on her facebook though, probably out of pure curiousity, as I wouldn't want her back at this point. even if she begged and pleaded.

 

I guess I just want that satisfaction of knowing that she's bleeding like I did at the beginning (and still am here and there). kind of sadistic, I know. but who cares? she hurt me aswell!

 

 

Just needed to let out some steam, hope everyone enjoys their days/nights (wherever you're from! haha)

 

Even when things look ****ty and seems like it won't ever pass, know that you can withstand every obstacle life throws at you, as long as you're prepared to get the F back up and be you again. You've got a strong heart, and what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I know, I've been there.

[Shashasha]

Thats great improvement. Dont expect to always feel like this thiugh - somefays you might feel really low and the other days really good. And stop looking at anything that reminds you of her - wont do any good. Go gomplete NC!