longjourney Posted October 29, 2013 Posted October 29, 2013 I just posted a response to a thread in the divorce forum. I cannot believe the anger I am feeling right now toward my WH. I have nothing but despair and sadness and neediness since my WH's DDay. That post just awoke something in my that I hadn't felt since DDay. I felt ANGER. I felt anger at my WH AND the OW. How dare HE do this to me???!!! How dare he risk our family and now tell me he wants to stay. He is not mentally or emotionally healthy, he has not done the work. There are apparently WH's out there who HAVE supposedly done the work and have STILL gone RIGHT back to the AP. How do you stipulate who the WH truly loves, especially in my case, it was a LTA. I think that if anyone is more f'd up then me right now, it is my WH. How can he even be thinking straight? Can he EVER think straight? He lied to me FOR YEARS. I was in my M feeling happy and special to be with him and the ENTIRE time, he was lying and he was with the OW telling her he loved her. How can I love a man like that? Even if I chose to stay I will always know he loved her while he was supposed to be loving me and our family. Those lies cannot be untold. Him having sex with her repeatedly IN MY HOME cannot be undone. He cannot EVER respect me the way he should have been respecting me. What in the world will ever make me feel that he loves ME, when he NEVER has before. 2
lylat333 Posted October 29, 2013 Posted October 29, 2013 Sounds like you have grown a lot since I last remember seeing your posts... took me a moment to realize who it was! You are probably seeing why we all said this man was no good. I'm just glad to see these other emotions awakening from inside you. Always wishing you the best. 2
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