Amaury Posted October 29, 2013 Posted October 29, 2013 I can't get out of this slump as much as I try to be positive at the end of the day i feel (know) that I'm just lieing to myself and I keep wondering how my ex is doing, as in where she is at in life after the break up. Part of me genuinely wants to be happy for her because part of me still loves her because It was a long time before I loved again and I took my chances with het, part of me is bitter because she got a new job (oh we work together, yea Stupid me), part of me is jealous because while I was stressing about going on a regular date with an old friend because I felt I was doing something wrong I find out that the last time we had sex (after the break up) in a months period she has had sex 3 times, twice with one guy, once with another, and she tried again with someone else but supposedly his penis was to small so she kocked him out. I'm trying to focus on myself finding a new job but my router just broke 2 days ago and it might be 2 weeks before I have internet and can apply again, I'm trying to out with friends but after being in a relationship for so long I realized things have changed and most of my friends don't go out anymore. The few close friends I have that I can open up to all I end up talking about eventually is her and that's the last thing I want on my mind. I dont know what to do, part of me wants her to be miserable or atleast focusing on school because that's what she needed to focus on supposedly but now I see all she wanted to do was be single and sleep around. I hate that I'm so blinded by love that I can let someone who I hate for what she did have such control over my mind and heart. I know I should move on but I can't while it kills me to see her move on so easily even tho she claims she is just using them for sex and that she wants it to be me but she can't because she still cares about me, Which is so stupid because instead of sleeping with the person you care about, you sleep with random old h.s friends, I know she is just feeding me bread crumbs. She was my best friend the person who i thought cared the most about me, the person who made me feel like it was okay to open and ket my guard down just to play me for a fool. Why did she try so hard to win my love over in the beginning just to give up so easily when it mattered the most.
Chi townD Posted October 29, 2013 Posted October 29, 2013 How are you finding out all of this information? Is she constantly sending you breadcrumbs or are you still in constant communication with her? I'm thinking the later. Because, I have a hard time seeing her send you a text like, " Hey, I just screwed an old High School friend last night. Miss you! Hope you have a great day!" 1
Author Amaury Posted October 29, 2013 Author Posted October 29, 2013 How are you finding out all of this information? Is she constantly sending you breadcrumbs or are you still in constant communication with her? I'm thinking the later. Because, I have a hard time seeing her send you a text like, " Hey, I just screwed an old High School friend last night. Miss you! Hope you have a great day!" We work together so we tried to maintain a friendship it didn't work because she acted like my gf, calling me baby saying i love you and that was confusing us so I asked her if she wanted another shot she said no and I said we shouldn't tlk outside of work (calls/txts) she got mad and in that month she did what she did. I thought it was her last day last week and I offered to hangout after wrk to catch up and clear the dust gey some closure. She asked me if Ive been with ppl kept it vague, I asked her and she told me she slept with 3(almost) guys and idky but I asked for details since the damage was done i figured it would help me move on.
Author Amaury Posted October 31, 2013 Author Posted October 31, 2013 So my ex just sent me a pic of her wearing her halloween costume. I'm trying to go NC but we work together. We have been NC for a month, since we decided to stop talking and then when we caught up recently, I found out she has been sleeping around and since then I have been NC and want to stay that way. I don't really want to reply so what should i say next time we bump into each other. I don't want to seem bitter cause I don't want her having the satisfaction of knowing that she hurt me, and since we work together I'm trying to make my work experience less stressful. How should I handle this?
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