jeffrey lambert Posted October 28, 2013 Posted October 28, 2013 So we have broken up. You were my first love and my everything. But then one day you told me that you are tired of trying and you want to stop trying. I said "alright let's break up". You said sorry, but I didn't want to hear it. It was the first time I ever cried for a girl. The next few days were the worst days of my life. I kept thinking about you and the good times we had, and I fell sick. I tried to get you back, I begged you to come back and try all over again. A fresh start, a new relationship. I didn't want to give up without trying. But you were firm. You said you lost feelings for me. You told me that you knew that I loved you deeply, and if I did, I got to let her go. She is right. One month after we broke up, throughout all my grovelling and lowering of my pride, I was tired. Tired of this whole thing being one-sided. I want you to be happy and so I let you go. But did I truly let you go in my heart? I stopped trying to get you back, but I never stopped missing you. I can't stop. It isn't about trying to stop yourself from missing your first love, it's impossible not to miss them, but just know that you have to let them do what is right for them. People always say maybe it just isn't the right time for you guys to be together, but to be honest, the harm has been done and we will never be together. It will come to a point where you are numb, you do not feel anything about her. After all the hatred you have towards her, all the things you call her, heartless, selfish.. you just can't feel that way anymore now, and that is good. But never give up on love, because I know that there's always someone more suitable out there.
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